MIA

Hey guys i know its been a while. I thot the fact that i had just 2 classes this semester, i would have all the tyme in the world to blog n have a life. Thats a big joke. My thesis and grad school applications are driving me crazy. For one, its taking me for eva to write up a personal statement. Ok i know exactly what i want to write, but my problem is how to start this whole write up. Also gathering up my potfolio is killing me. for the fact that my flash drives that has half of my college and career work IS MISSING !!! i know i should be more tensed than i am right now, but where is that gonna get me? I feel so empty without them i had a back up, but how nice, my external hard drive isnt working. for some funny reason no computer is recognizing it so i went to the Geek squad to see if they could retrive my documents for me and guess what ? Well they said to start up, i am looking at $1800. lol a joke right ? I wish. I guess i would figure out what to do as soon as possible. i need to get my personal statement ready first and my potfolio comes in when i get an interview so i guess i would take it one step at a time.

There you go Honey well that why i have been MIA.

Update:

So i have been busy to blog, but i must confess not too busy for Mr Untitiled. lol

what more can i say, we getting closer n i am falling deeper.lol  

He plans on coming over early March wow you can only imagin how excited i feel and how much i am looking fwd to his visit. 

Still talking with the Ex, yes he is the Ex now but he still wants a reason !!!! Ok really i know i would love to know the reason why someone wants to break up with me, but if its taking them over a week i think i would get the message and stop asking. Well like i said "if it was me" So lets just say he's not giving up. 

i kinda miss him thou ....... oops did i say that out loud????

facebook has done it again

So i got this message tonight and i remembered the post "Honeywell" had about the message sent to her friend. i had to share........ (facebook messages)

Ist one
Subject: Princess Paradigm (.... princess???)

compliments my sweet sister
u look like the 1st creation with that ur angelic
smile. u also seem graciously immaculate and fascinatingly flambouyant. i 'll like to know a little more about u . get in touch pls, tell me more about ur social side.
# 6*******

No reply... 3hrs later another message

Subject :Baby

Hello sister, u look immaculately hot and sexy. were u born on a sunday morning ? i 'll like to know more about u pls call me or send your number ..6*********

*** ok "graciously immaculate and fascinatingly flambouyant." who says that ???? like really what happened to the hello how are you doing?
and "were u born on a sunday" can someone break that down for me ????
and really did he have to us all those words??????
Still laughing here. i wish i cud be that BOLD...........

.............................. blah blah blah .................................

Mr u: i miss taking you around and talking dirty lol architecture i mean
P: lol u funny i miss that too
Mr u: how have you been?
P: i have been lovely and you?
Mr u: just ok. work is fyne, family great, me : missing u .
P; lol thats funny
Mr u: naa am 4 real. i know i promised i wasnt going to force and rush things but i feel if i dont tell you how i feel its my loss.
P: Untitled pls dont
Mr u: pls dont make me lie to my self. i thot if you left things where going to slowly go back to normal, but its not, and the best part is , i dont want it to. I love the way i feel about you , i love the way i feel when my lil niece mentions your name, or i think of you. i love ...
P: Pls stop pls stop you making this harder
Mr U: i know i am being selfish, I know you are confused right now and need tyme to sort things out, but i do not want to make things more difficult for you but all i ask for is you take your tyme and sort things out. dont tag me along just to tell me u just wanna be friends. do what ur heart wants and if i am involved i wud be the happiest man on earth .
P...........(silent or sud i say speechless)
Mr u: are you there p?
P: yes i am
Mr U: pls say sthing . was i the only one that felt something the day u left? that kiss meant a lot to me. can u tell me u didnt feel nothing?
P: silent
MR U": paradigm pls talk to me
P: i donno ........that kiss wasnt meant to happen
MrU: but it did ... n thats not my question
P: i donno what i felt ( gosh was i sooooooo lieing i know how exactly i felt i still feel my heart racing when i think about it)
Mr u: P thats fyne u dont have to say nothing right now. I am here when ever you ready.
P: thanks for understanding
P:oo guess what i got a job offer as a freelancer !!!!!
Mr u: o wow babes that's great how, when, whats it about?
P: yesterday they saw sthing i worked on n contacted me , also i need more experience in graphic designs i guess i have been concentrating more on architecture i thot i do sthing different.
Mr u: thats nice happy for you.

................... blah blah blah blah ......................

Mr untitled and i have been talking everyday, maybe every other hr. its been great but i hate it wen our conversation gets to this turn. Gosh he is so what i want. but am i sure? thats what i know , just what i know. Well as per my bf. we talked yesterday thats a whole another story. told him i meant it when i said things are not working even thou he is still saying we cud work things out, i think i was more sure and he got the point. i promise this has nothing to do with mr untitled, but its something i need to do. I feel bad i am tagging him along and i dont feel the same way he does. I fell ,why say i am his gf if i dont act, think, feel that way. I feel i am hurting him more by not ending this now. so i stood by my ground last night and told him.
Gosh i hate break ups!!!

-His Taste-

I wasn't going to blog about this, but Dl asked the funniest question!!!"has he kissed u yet? what does he taste like? lemon? shit? abeg update oooo"

So i decided to title this post, "His Taste" before i start, i know for sure its not like shit, lol but not too sure about lemon.....

13min B4 knowing:

its 12:30pm and i am rushing into town. I have just 3 hrs to spend with Mr untitled today before i fly out, and i hope we have as much fun as we normally do. Last night didnt end too good coz i was ansing a whole lot of questions. Questions that has to do with him, me and my bf. Am i going to leave the devil i know for the angel i barley know? am i going to loss the what seem perfect for the very imperfect? how am i going to let my bf know i really want out? am i getting out coz of me or coz of MR untitled?? what do i really want? what does God want for me? how..........."Phone ringing, interrupting my recollection process"

Mr U: sorry am running late, the meeting took longer than i expected.

P: thanks fyne i am not there yet should be there in 10min

Mr: oh cool i guess i would be there before you than, was worried i kept you waiting

P: na u didnt call u when i get there

Mr U: ok then

... so where was I? yeah How do i know .. how do i know what ? gosh his call messed my whole thinking process up.. anyways what eva i am just going to enjoy this day and i guess see what time has in stock for us.

I get out of the car to meet him gave him a hug as usual and immediately his face was in front of mine. I could barely feel his lips at first. was so soft it could have been a rush of air over my lips. Immediately, my eyes closed shut in response, the absence of one sense( sight) alerted the other four. Especially the one i want in particular( touch) Two more gentle brushes of what felt like air( am i imagining them i thot) Eager to feel his flesh against mine. The next touch of his lips takes away the notion from my mind, The thot that this is an imagination. There is pressure now, firm but soft, cool yet warm, sweet yet minty. The warmth from his touch moves into me through the union of our lips causing "real" butterflies to rise in my stomach, my palms sweaty and my heart raceing.... dum dum dum i could feel his too. I love the feel of his lip. I was surprised that angular face of his could contain anything soft. so soft, so delicate, so .... wonderful. As i think this, his lips part, but not too much, just enough to trap my upper lips a hint of a nibble and a suck is all i get...... : ( Dont stop now, i want more is all i thot.

I part my own lips in response trapping his upper lips now. Its luscious and thick. the tip of my tongue flicks out, am eager to taste.... he groans in response, I release his lower lips, and our mouth fused once more. this tyme, they open simultaneously, creating something huge just waiting to explode. with butterflies still in my stomach and both hearts pumping so fast, instead of plunging his tongue in, he starts to trace da outline of my mouth, punishing me with my imagination of his talented tongue just on the edge of my knowledge. Trying so hard to think, everything about him is power play, with no doubt, he would say the same thing about me. I thot it was part of what makes our kiss so exciting,.. finally i give in. my tongue goes deep into his mouth, investigating the sweetness there. he tasted of a fragrant wine, it was rich,powerful and heady. It left me slightly drunk and defiantly craving for more. I then rolled his taste on my tongue like a fine expert. emm absolutely delicious. Upon my verdict, his tongue reaches out to taste mine as well . My eyes squeezing shut as i wonder what he tastes in me. The craving within became almost too much to bear.

I need to reciprocate. I need to touch him too. The mere meeting of our mouth isnt enough to capture the sinful richness of this man. My fingers reached out hesitantly at first, i pushed back. then again brushing slowly against the razor sharp edge of his cheek. wow this was the only touch we share, he then leans into my lands, encouraging me. i cup his cheek with my warm palm. My fingers trace sensuously along his jaw line, tracing the strong features of his face that i know by heart,

I reach out with my left hand as well now, cupping his face as I pour my desire into our kiss.
His tongue grows more daring now, stroking against mine , tracing it from every angle. It is an artist’s paintbrush, his paint brush gentle and so sure, creating a master piece and beauty within me. Or maybe it just reveals the beauty that was already there... lol
Oh god! The things his tongue is doing are anything but innocent. He finds every spot that makes me gasp showers them with attention... His moves, reaching out to gently hold my waist in place as he kisses me breathless. I know the skill of those fingers, the innovative ways in which they make love to my body... did i say make love?? yess thats how i felt ...Yet they remain still, content merely to hold me for the moment.
With his touch, the burning passion within him finally rises to its highest flame. His mouth becomes possessive, over mine, pouring out every emotion in his poet’s heart, showing his......... ring ring ring ring .. oh no, not my phone. Immediatly i pulled away. was i dreaming? was it an immagination? the look on his face made me realize it was all real. Oh no i tried so hard to avoid this. not like i regreat it, but now i know this is going to make this hard. so hard for me to let go. I pick up the call just so as to break the ice. I felt shy??? did i say shy?? yess ...why ,? i had no clue. i had no idea who was on the line and what i said all i had in mind was the kiss, his taste............

Pre - His Taste-

Just







days b4 i leave n Mr untitled said he wanted to take me somewhere special!!!( doesnt he always say that?) .I got dressed, took extra time i guess i just wanted to look really nice for him and also be ready for any other princess or queens of his castle. lol (just kidden) .

Getting to the area, all i cud see was residential houses (i know well enuf he wasnt working on any at the moment .. he told me every building he was working on) so i asked and he had this annoying smile on saying well i wanted you to meet someone special or should i say someone thats very special to me wanna meet you. I froze for a sec and said what? Yes it was his mother and hell yes i wasnt going in. Well after 20min of constant back n forth, i finally went in with him.

Meeting Mrs Untitled :
Mr U : hey mom we here
P:"we here?? gosh why does that sound so scary !!!!"
Mom: just a sec darling wud be with you guys
Princess : Uncle Uncle you made it
Mr U: hello my princess how r u?
P: hey hon how have u been?
Princess: am fyne thank you and you?
P: been lovely
Mr U: where is your mum?
Princess: she dropped me off and said she would come get me later.
Mom: hello my dear you most be Paradigm
Princess: grand ma , grand ma, i told you she was pretty

"wink" lol

P: yes i am ma. nice to meet you........"had this smile on i had no idea weather it looked cheesy, fake or real"
"his mom had the cutest hair eva its was all grey with little strikes of black gosh i made a quick prayer"lord pls let me age this way "lol
Mom: so since MR U made it soo clear to me that i should not bug you, because you guys are just "friends!!!!" i am trying soo hard not to wanna see you again. but friends do visit each others family dont they ?
P : lol yes they do ma'am . @ Mr u: i gave him a lil pinch coz of the way he made his mom emphasis on the just friends it was soo obvious it was my idea....
Mr u: trust me i know my mom, u wud run out n i dont wanna loss you
p : yeah yeah what eva,(he hates when i say that )
So we all had a little chat n had lunch. Princess was the central of attention isnt she always? (trust me i am not jealous of an 11 year old.....). She had a story to tell about every thing we talked about on the table no matter how slightly related it is, in her own little world she had a similar experience. After lunch, which i most say, wasnt as bad as i thot, Mr untitled excuse himself and I. We got ready and princess asked if she would see me again, all i could say was definitely some day. she wasnt too pleased with my ans and looked at Mr untitled and said "you better make her come back" he then told her, " its all depends on her she's the one that needs to make up her mind"-- No he didnt have to put me on the spot like that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well his mum walked us outside after we both exchanged pleasantries. " I hope to see you again dear and maybe then both of you would have taken off the fake sticker of "we just friends" on your forehead's" .... we all laughed and got in the car.

]The rest of the day was fun but sad @ the same tyme. We both realized i would be out of here in less than 24hr, no more archi talks one on one, no more long ass lunch breaks, site seeing , constant laughs and BIG tyme flirting....

why did we have to meet right b4 i was about to leave?

why did he have to move back to Naija?

why now?

He asked what i thot about long distance relationship, my ans wasnt too encouraging he said. but really i have been in one b4 and i didnt like it. the pain in missing someone isnt really worth the rush of excitement when you met them after a while. you grow apart no matter how much you talk on the phone and is just too painful. I really wasn't ready to go through that again and at the same tyme, i really wasn't ready to loos my Mr Architect .

Mr Untitlied and his Princess ( Not me .. i wish )

Dl has been asking for an update on Mr untitled... A lot has been going on but I still cant find that dirt. I know its such little tyme but there have to be some dirt.

Here it goes : UPDATE!!!

So Mr untitled and I have been hanging out a little too much on the name of “architecture” yeah right. We both know its more to it than our passion for architecture. Its been amazing I most say, so amazing that I forgot I have a BF… “oh shit I have a bf. Need to call him back. Been saying I was going to call back for ages now” anyways he has been taking me to different kinda building type : lounge , restaurants , bars ...... Not just to the places, but we go and talk about the architecture too” my kinda date” lol I know I am weired, see why a non architect or non art lover would be miserable with me around…. anyways we have been talking about our selves all thru and i feel like i have know him for over 2 years now. ( i cant believe i am saying this) anyways i am so scared for the weekend to come coz i feel this thing "what should i call it?" fling? game? friendship? WHAT??? would end pretty soon.

Stupid me:

So i have been looking extra hard for any flaw Mr untitled has and its gotten me a lil bit paranoid.
"This was really embarrassing"
----Mr Untitled and I at a lounge ---
we were talking and all of a sudden someone walks by
Some1: Hey Untitled how you doing?
Untitled: Am doing good and You? Its been a while
S: Yeah Been busy with work you know how it is
U: Oh am sorry this is Paradigm , Paradigm met Someone.
P: Nice to meet you. S had this wired smile on saying nice to meet you too, "winked @ U n asked : So howz ur princess??
P:WHAT?? Princess?? ok God i wanted to know his dirt but not like this......."hold up why u getting worked up?you guys arent dating...naa but he told me he had no one - SELF STOP - stop calm down and listen ------

U: she is doing wonderful asked after you told her we wud come see you later this week.
S: that would be great looking fwd to it. i would let madam know so we can all hang.
S: nice to meet you paradigm
P:same her "smile wipped off tried to fake it, cudnt work"
U: bye then.

So he left and MR U kept smiling and asked if i was ok after apologizing for taking my tyme i said it was ok but still had a straight face on. we finished up, and he dropped me up and asked if he could come in ... "i dont think its a good idea " was my response. "ok then sorry i pushed" was his. he drove off and called me later. we only talked for about a min coz i faked being sleepy.

The next day was already planned b4 sun rise .
We where to meet @ a spot to have ice cream n get lunch after. While @ home i was trying so hard to get over what i heard the night b4 ok really why was i mad? was it coz i was beginning to like him? but come on you have a bf n u tripping coz he has a "PRINCESS" how cheesy i said lol . so i tried to get my self off that selfish mode and got dressed up n ready to leave.
As soon as i saw him that anger rushed in. why?
He looked as sexy as eva gosh he knows how to dress. he was always looking on point and today wasn't different . the thot of him having a "princess" made me angry .....he came walking by me with this big smile on and as soon as he saw my face, his wiped off. he asked again what was wrong n i stood by my " i am ok" he asked again and said " its ok if you mad at something, just tell me you dont feel like talking about it right now." " Yes there is something wrong, but i dont feel like talking about it right now " i said ---. "Ok then thanks for telling me, i hope you feel better n can tell me later coz its affecting me and our time" he said. Our tyme? what does he mean our tyme ? lol i laughed. we walked in the shop and stood on the line. it was kinda a long one. kids are still on holiday so it looked like they where all out there ...
2 more people in front, thank God
"Uncle. uncle" - from a cute lil girl standing at the door running toward me.
hey my princess- from right behind my ears.
YES she is the princess. His Niece. she ran into his arms and he gave her a big hug (gosh i want dirts not things to make me fall deeper)
hey princess i want u to meet someone.
U: princess this is paradigm .. p , meet my lil princess Ola.
P: speechless for a sec" looking @ MR U and feeling so stupid for giving him an attitude all along "
P: Nice to met you sweet heart i love your purse ( she had the cutest purse a girl of her age can have on ")
Princess: thank you i love your shoes .
P: thanks hon. How old are you?
Princess: i am 11
U: going on 31 lol
Princess: no am not.
P: lol nice to meet you
U: where's ur mum?
Princess: she is at the door talking to a friend .......
Yes it was his niece
yes i felt stupid
yes i still feel stupid
Yes i think he knew that was why i had an attitude
Yes he asked
yes i denied it lol
yes she is adorable
Yes i like him
yes i need some dirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just one wud be fyne ...

He cant be all perfect can he?

Tag

I was tagged by Desperate lady, i haven't done this before either so bear with me guys .

Two Names you go by:

1) Aj

2) P

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:

1) Pj's

2) my glasses

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:

1) trust n understanding

2) love n romance

Two of your favorite things to do:

1) paint

2) laugh

Two things you want very badly at the moment:

1) another vacation

2) my jill scott's cd

Two pets you had/have:

1) a fish - i actually almost flushed her down coz i had to travel on vacation so i gave her out instead. : (

2) fish (still alive lol) : )

Two people you think will fill this out:

1) N.E.E.F

2) Honeywell

Two thigs you did last night:

1) went out with friends

2) danceddddddddddddd

Two things you ate last night:

1) spring roll

2) more spring roll lol

Two people you last talked to:

1) my lost best friend i haven't spoken to in 5 years

2) Mr Untitled "wink wink "

Two things you're doing tomorrow:

1) going to the bank

2) lunch with Mr untitled "double wink " lol

Two longest car rides:

1) Atlanta to Baltimore

2) -------------------

Two favourite holidays:

1) Christmas

2) thanksgiving !!!

Favourite Beverages:

1) Water

2) coffee !!!!

Person no longer alive you'd like to talk to:

1) Grandma

2) E ( high school class mate)

Thanks DL now i feel the way u did. This sounds boring... i read throu and was like emmm do i post this???
Here it is anyways .. thanks for tagging miii...

i hereby tag: Neef, Honeywell, rethots, little miss me, Undaconstruction, the scribe and my perspective !!! enjoy

Thanks yall for stopping by !!!!

Hope she loves it !!!

OR

Ok this sounded so hilarious that i had to share .
So i went out last night with my brother, sister and his and my friends. We all met up at my brothers house and i was introduced to a guy by my brother.
Brother: Hey met my lil sis Paradigm
Guy: Nice to meet you i am guy ( i wish i cud use his name to make this sound better lol)
P: Same here i am Paradigm
Brother: you two talk and yeah Paradigm did i tell you he loves parrot???
P:"in my head" ok why did he just say that? i was as lost as you all are right now. I was wondering why my brother said that, but thats all he said and walked away so i asked the guy and he found a nice way to shove it off.
................. we later got to the lounge and the guy called my brother out and warned him not to talk about the parrot Gosh was i now more eager to hear what the parrot was all about......
So the next day, we all had to go visit my lil brother @ school and we ( my older brother, sis, and i) where all talking about last night so i remembered i wanted to hear the parrot story. perfect tyming and perfect person. My brother loves to tell a story and swears he can ALWAYS be funny.
My bother: aiight you all need to hear this, mummy come on you too. So my friend Guy and i where talking and jisting about our experiences with falling deeply in love with a lady and was shearing things that we have done that where really stupid. when i heard his story, i couldn't even say my coz his was way crazy.
the story: the guy had this babe that he was dating and was soo in love with her right so it was her birthday and he was thinking of the perfect gift to get for her. he then decided to get a parrot... yes a PARROT and said he was going to train it to say " Guy loves you " guy loves you" ..... and to him the trip would be when her guy friends come to visit her, the parrot would keep going "guy loves you" guy loves you" ...

ok this sounded really funny in person as in we where all cracking up laughing like crazy. how love can make some people think of really creative "funny" gift ideas. I am sure it was from a good heart. But come on a parrot??? call her and send a text message lol.

The Kiss

That first kiss

That childlike kiss

The kiss on the check

Then slowly to the lips

That kiss we both long for

That who the hell cares kiss

That kiss that makes my toes curl

That kiss that opens door

That kiss that starts the unforgettable

That kiss that makes me numb

That Kiss, that kiss I miss

- QUESTIONS -

When do u draw the line?
When do you say you have had enough?
When is the world going to see it from your point of view?
When can it almost drive you crazy?
When is it ok to walk out?

Questions I ask my self when i hear about an unfaithful boyfriend or husband. I have been talking to a friend (more like an aunt) of mine who is married by the way for 5 years now and from the day after her honeymoon, she has been suspecting her husband of infidelity. Ok did i say suspecting? She actually knows, he confesses and cries and do it all over again.

Its just 5 years, what would happen when they get to 10? or 25?
How would she feel?
Who would she be?
She would have lost her identity i say trying to make things work.
She would loss trust ( if she already hasnt)
She would build hatred in her poor little heart for a man she truly loves.
She would regret the day she said I DO.

What do i say ? Do i keep telling her to hang in there ? DO i really think he would change? I pray he does cos he is hurting her So bad its telling on her So bad she cant even imagine he could change So what do i say?

I love my friend don't get me wrong,
But i hate being around coz of her sad story
I hate being around coz i am afraid i am going to burst out and tell her to WALK AWAY
I hate being around because i don't want to hate men like she does
I am not saying i don't want to be a friends and listen
But i see my self forced to tell her how i feel.

How do i feel? I have sat down and thot about her condition I know my feelings might not be surreal because i am not married But dam its still ones heart Its still ones feeling Can i take half of what she is taking ? Can i allow a man take advantage of my submission and love ? God pls dont make me have to have a reason to ans this question. Because i am scared of what my ans would be. I am scared i am not made that way I am scared i am too weak to deal with that.

So what should she do?
Sit back and wait till he comes back home
Scared as hell of what he might bring home?
Aids is real dum ass didn't you get the memo
Should she hold back of his right?
Should she not enjoy her right?
But of what point is it when u scared of the unknown?
Gosh its so much questions that needs an answer
Why should one get into the institution of married only to regret it?

So really WHEN is the question... 5 years of anger, tears, hatred, questions, and heart break Should she wait for another 5 ?
Or maybe 10? Should she keep hoping ? Or should she count it as a loss and WALK AWAY ???

Black or White

Its either Hot or cold,
black or white,
yes or no,
right or wrong,
Male or female
Love or Lust.

Love is blind they say,
Lust has eyes, eyes that are wide open for games.
Love can be seen as day
Lust is the night
Love is simply true,
Lust sits quiet thinking of the next game.
Love need not be beautiful but lust makes it a pre-requisite
Love can stand through thick and thin
Lust can not.
By its nature it thrives

Love is white as snow, pure at heart
Lust fights in mud for its desires.
I can offer you love, not lust,
I am afraid you might not like it
So should i say i love and lust you?
Because of this, love shall hold hands with lust,
cuddle, kiss and even make love
then love and lust becomes one to us.
It may last it may not.

-Paradigm-

(nb: has nothing to do with Mr untitled lol something i wrote a while ago and just came across )

contd. "confussed "

12:05 ( i am running late, i really didnt mean to but i always happen to get lost in abuja)
So i meet up with Mr untitled at the ring road round about. he comes out of the car and gives me a hug and asked me to drive behind him. Finally we get to the site. ( i have been driving pass it and wondering what it was !!! now i get a tour !! yepiii )
We get on site and he gives me a construction cap to wear i was skeptical about putting it on and he whispered that he got a new one from the office for me. i tried to snap out of it and realize that this is the real world n i have to stop being picky.
we went round the building and he was all after if i was ok and making sure i dont trip or not ( i came prepared with my flats wasnt ready for any surprises)
After the whole tour, i most say i was impressed the building definitely had an outside touch to it. it wasnt like every other building you see around. It had this contemporary style and for one, IT FOLLOWED SOME KINDA CODE. (finally someone is thinking about ADA, fire, evacuation, and life cycle of a building)
after this, he asked if i wanted to have a drink and talk for about an hour.
ring ring ring ring ( caller ID : BOYFRIEND )
one part of me didnt wanna pick up, another part of me wanted to . So i excused my self and answered the call
P: hello
BF: hey baby how u doing?
P: am lovely and u?
BF: pls change your arrival date i miss you
P: lol its just 1 week to go
BF: just?
P: lol
Bf: r u busy ?
P: yeah out with a friend
BF: WHO?( his insecure self comes out)
P: a friend i met
BF: a guy or a girl?
P: does that matter?
Bf: baby pls just ans
P: a guy if u most know
Bf: sud i be worried?
P: maybe ...lol just joking
Bf: i hate when u do that
P: i hate when u worry
BF: My mum sends her love
P: O howz she doing?
P: O baby i have to run can i call u later ?
Bf: why are u rushing me off the phone?
P: i am not just have to call u back
Bf: i love you
P: ok bye
BF: i said i love you !!!
p: hello i cant hear you, wud call u later
( gosh i was lying i could hear him , everything he said. but Mr untitled was right by my side. i wasn't ready to let him know i have a man. ( was i wrong?) didnt care at the moment.
Untitled: if u dont mind me asking who's that?
P: i do mind
U: o am sorry
P: naa thats fyne that was my friend from school
U: cool so tell me do you have a bf ?
P: u mean me?( ok yes i said that, i wasnt ready i had no clue he was going to bring that up, not right there !!)
P: not sure
u: lol u funny what u mean u not sure?
P: am not too sure where we left things when i came for the holidays ( well there is an atom of truth in that one sha, really i have been having mixed feeling and told him we needed to talk when i get back so some how i wasn't lying)
U: well i hope u find out soon.
P: i hope so too.
U: anyways let got get something to drink and talk about sthing else
P: sure
So we went somewhere and had a couple of drinks he said he had to work from home and didnt need to go back to the office so our 1hr drink date stretched to 3hrs. At the back of my mind i was scared God i have only know this man for only 2 days and i am falling( i never accept it ) so i snapped out of it and told him i had to go . he didn't object and even apologized for taking over an hr.
he asked when he was going to see me again and i said i wasn't sure. he said that was fyne and asked if he could call later that night.
We talked and i am still falling lol being avoiding him because i am going deeper. i am about to leave and not ready for a long distance crap. (been there done that never again)
Last night he asked if i was or wud be interested in getting to know each other more b4 i leave and i said i wasn't sure. he laughed it over and told me how he felt .. the usual blah blah blah Naija babe tripping for what he has and wen they hear his accent they fake theres, you know that annoying fake accent. and them being closed minded and blah blah blah blah. ( i laughed coz that was the same thing my brother said when he came back home to work)
Anyways when eva Untitled comes on on my caller ID, i have the cheesiest smile and blush...... i feel guilty coz i know the thots i have in my head (no actions yet) But one part of me wanna enjoy this and you never know, maybe Mr untitled is my Mr Architect i always wanted. : )

Pashmina Vs Tie

Hey guys, sorry i have been MIA for a while and haven't updated any post. Why? I CANT STAND THE SLOW INTERNET SERVICE IN NAIJA. so since i still have about a week, i thot i might as well get used to it and just do what i have to do.

So here it goes. So far so good, i have been having a blast. I wish i haven't been travelling as much thou so i can at least have a long term kinda fun.

Lagos was scary, Calabar was beautify, Kaduna was different, Abuja is home.

So i have decided not to travel again and sit my ass in Abuja till i leave its been working for over 3 days now and i most say its going on fyne.
Hooked up with a couple of old friends, and making new ones,
Met all kind of guys and i most say they where all different in their own way. Of all of then i was quick to say oh yeah i have a boy friend until Mr untitled came by.

I was going to confirm my return ticket, and there he was nicely dressed with the sexiest tie i have seen lately. ( yeah i said sexy. there was something about the tie and his smile that made it so sexy. i could only imagine how horrible the next guy would look with it on.)
Tie: i love your Pashmina ( funny enuf it was my fav)
P: thank you ( walking along)
Tie: i cudnt see you with a shade lighter.
P: I guess my boyfriend made the perfect pick then. (gosh i was soo lying)
Tie: (laughing out loud ) i like that
P: wots funny?
Tie: you! trying to push my away before even talking to me or even looking @ me
me: u sure its worth my tyme
Tie: i promise it is
anyways we kept going back and forth until i got to my car wondering ok is he going to stop !!! not like i wanted him to . So i finally turned and gosh he got me with that smile of his. we later exchanged numbers and i left.
right b4 i got out of the gate, my phone rang ( unnamed number !!! it has to be him )
p: hello
Tie: why where u steering @ my tie?
p: who is dis?
Tie: come on like you werent expecting my call
p: i really wasnt. u didnt come to me as the kinda guy that wud ask when can i call you and call right after.
Tie: u didnt come to me a the kinda lady that would lie her boy friend got her the pashmina just to push me way.
p: Laughing ok then so how are you?
Tie: am ok and you?
blah blah . so we talked of about 30 min and ended up with a date for later that evening with a clues ( he said i had to wear the same pashmina) .

7:45 my phone is ringing. ( ok i thot we said 8pm) anyways i was all ready(with out the pashmina) but said i wasnt. ( not like i was trying to play, but my "boyfriend" was on the other line and for some wired reason i felt guilty.
i get out side and met him. he tried to be polite and said hello before asking where my pashmia was, but i could tell that was hard, i could tell he wanted to say that way before he said hello. All i could say was why wasn't he wearing the tie he wore earlier and then he questioned my silence, why i didn't say a word about his tie!!!!.
he had this sexy Cologne on that instantly i knew i was going to be vulnerable if he comes closer !!! i wasn't sure of my self anymore, i wasn't sure i was strong. he was different. very different from other guys i meet in Naija. he spoke differently, acted differently ( well from what i have seen) . so i get into the car and then i was blown all i could hear was the voice of Jill Scott. First i asked: is that the radio? and he said no. instantly i tried to fake it like i wasn't impressed and changed the topic.
on the drive to where eva he was taking me, we talked about everything. then i found out he was an architect. I HAD NO CLUE. !!! then u can imagine how much we had to talk about. We had the same dream :acquire and come make a difference back home. we got to the spot and we didn't come out of the car. we where so into the conversation.
Finally we decide to leave the car and he walks me into this really nice restaurant. ( abuja seems to surprise me everyday) it was very romantic and the ambiance was amazing. We talked and ate and he asked if he could see me during his break tomorrow that he wanted to take me to a site. ( i was so excited but i had to ask: . i hope i dont have to climb up the building mask?) i wasn't ready to come over my fear of height, not with a stranger .
....to be continued