I donno!!! Cry maybe????

Yes i cried as in tears rolling down , me shaking , nose running (lol not that bad but i cried sha)

15min earlier 

So i got an appointment with the apple store for 2:45. i was there at 2:20. 

Didnt call me up to the bar till about 3pm 

So it was a friend of mine, the agent and one of my professors from school

So the agent asked me to turn on my laptop, and b4  i could say anything, he immediately said they cant cover the damage. I was shocked, angry and trying to hold back. i could not get all smart or curse @ him, coz my prof was right there and i was trying to protect the schools name lol So i asked him, why do i have a warranty thats not yet expired and a protection plan if it cant cover a damage? and he kept going back and front about how they wud only cover it if it was a weather damage to the LCD like maybe the heat blah blah . i cudnt stand in front of him, he then said or we could take it in and when we done, we can call you and you can pay the bill. Ok that sounds decent, but how much are we talking about here? $1200..... as you all can see, its like the world is against me or sthing, emm all my enemies wud fall down oh, lol as in first it was my external hard drive, then now my laptop. so i walked out with the anger and pain in my heart. so i called my brother, who infected me with the mac virus and was telling him what happened. he was all oh wow try another store blah blah and if they say the same thing, let me know. and the last straw that broke the camels back he said" wow if that was me , i wud shed a tear, juts one" Immediately from no where i was in the middle of the mall crying like a little girl. i was literally crying the tears cudnt stop running down. i was using my pashmina to wipe it, but it was still pouring (gosh did i hate the look everyone's face around me had on as in like" do u need a shoulder to cry on??"

So i got off the phone with my brother crying and all i could think about was to call my mum. 

told her what happened and she was like is that why you crying? hold up really i know i love my laptop but come on, was that why i was crying??????????? anyways i told her and she gave my Dad the phone. i hate when he does this..... my mum has told him everything i said already, coz i could hear her telling him, and when he got to the phone, he was like. oya what happened???

so i had to try and force words out of my crying voice and he started laughing.. yep thats my Dad, he finds something funny in everything one says. So my mum got back on the phone and asked if my friend was by me , i said yes and she said she wanted to talk to her. She got on the phone with her and was asking her why i was crying ok I AM GROWN MUMMY just coz i am crying dont mean she had to ask my friend why she allowed me cry like she would have stopped me from crying. So my dad got back on the phone and asked what i wanted to do. i told him there was no way i was going to fix a laptop i got for $2000 with $1200. its not even a year old. I was after the cost, my dad was after my education . Yes i know all my designs and projects are on my laptop but its $1200 do you know how many shoesssssssssssssss i can buy with that ??? OH GOD . so he told me i sud do what i have to do to get my project back on track. blah blah this is your last semester (the naija thing came in) the devil knows you going to be great, first it was you hard drive now this. dont let the devil put u down.Go ahead and get a new one and make sure they get all your information back on. You would think i would stop crying then? NO i started even more. he was confussed... P what is it? lol and you say  u tough, why u crying? everything would be ok just go find out how soon you can get you information to a new notebook. 

blah blah balh the conversation went on. 

So yes now i can laugh about it, but i really cant believe i cried. i love my notebook but men its crazy why have an apple care protection BS for $349 and it doesnt cover a CRACK ???????????? so does that justify me crying??? it actually felt good, its been a while since i cried i guess i just cried all for one coz really it could not have been all coz of the notebook. lol 

lost one to get another...

Feeling a lil better. For one, my head dosnt hurt anymore, but the constant coughing and sneezing is messing with my joints men and the worse thing happened to me tonight. So I am over @ my friends place, recovering( isn't it sweet how they don't care if I infect them lol) and I most say, being around people sure helped me feel better, so I got on the bed, all strong n excited and was like, what a perfect tyme to get on blogspot. So I pick up my sexy mac book pro!!!! Lol and what did a hear? A crack ..like more than half of the screen is gone, all I can see is my dock @ the bottom. . Oh no u can't imagine how I feel right now. Like I feel like I just broke an arm of something. Customer service is closed till 6am and I am literally counting down. I donno what I wud do without my lapyyyy to think I have a case so the surface wudnt be scratched if only I knew. So I am here, on my phone updating, coz I can't sleep I need it to be 6am like right now men. So my plan is to call them at 6am and also be the first at the apple store tomorrow. I wish this was all a dream men :(

-Rule #No 1: Initials or First Name Please-

I wanted to blog about this last night, but i was soo sleepy .. Here it goes 
12:35pm Knock on my door. i know  well enough  i wasn't  expecting anyone .
Peeped from the window ...UPS: emm not expecting a mail either...

So i opened up and then,  2boxes : 1. Flowers, 2. Gift box  (yes Honeywell the 1800 flowers one lol gosh why did u have to soo jinx me???)  :(

So i opened the box of flowers  and was hopping i didnt sleep thru tues,n wed coz i know dam well Valentines day is not till Thursday.
 1st thing first i reached out for the card.
It was the sweetest note eva. and ended with "I hope we get to spend more of this in years to come" NO NAME NO INITIAL NOTHING !!!! how the hell am i to know who sent it. 

Opened the next box ,  A perfume "Pleasures by Estee lauder " emm I LOVE !!! (this person knows me well) with a note: "love you baby." NO INITAL OR NAME Again !!!!! 

 I was thorn between 3 guys , and i know i couldn't get it wrong. 

So i called the 3rd guy, we spoke for about 5min and i knew right away it wasnt him, coz he was still talking about oo can i see you this weekend blah blah so One down 2 to go. its between MR Untitled and MR ex.
So i called Mr Ex, tried to make the conversation as casual as possible, and trying so hard to find out if he was the one without spilling the beans. Any how yep i spilled the beans coz he used a line in the note and i was soo sure he was the one. i went ahead to say thanks blah blah and how he shouldnt have and blah blah and how he's making this breakup more difficult.( i love flowers n the perfume,  but i was trying not to show that. i was trying to make him think i meant it, "YOU SHOULDNT HAVE" . 
OMG i shouldnt have. i should have let him say what he had to say right when he said "Paradigm hold up" . But no i was focusing on how he's  making things harder and the note was so inappropriate, 
Finally i was done, and he was like" P its not Valentains day yet, i didnt send you a perfume, or flowers through the mail. Why wud i when i can come drop it my self. But i guess i get the message , I knew it was anther guy all along you should have just told me and saved me the trouble by asking you on and on.  Let me dont hold you up, go ahead and say your thank you to the right person. I just wish you told me why you wanted to break up and not come up with some excuss. what am i saying??, No excuss at that"
I was speechless, couldn't say a word. @ all coz i felt bad, not that i called the wrong person, but that he actually thot i broke up with him because of MR Untitled. Its soo not the reason and i didnt want him to think that way. i felt that wasnt fair at all. 

 So i get off the phone and immediately Mr Untitled called(if only i waited an extra Hour all that drama wouldn't have happened. 

Started off like every regular conversation and acting like he didn't  send me nothing (So honeywell there was no way i would have gotten my flowers in person until MArch ... emmm still in person would have been better thou lol )

Then i asked him if it was already the 14th in Naija, and he laughed and said he was actually praying they would have a delay n not deliver early till the 14th blah blah and how he had to travel out of town and also  make sure i got the gifts. 

We talked for a while and i knew i had to get off the phone and clear things out with my ex. not like i was guilty, but just coz i wanted to remain friends with him and this for sure was messing that all up      :( 

I know he listens !!!! try him

Today started like every other day, call from my ex waking me up, going to the bathroom and then saying a little prayer. (i need to get closer to my God men) 

i went down stairs, trying to get some work done as soon as possible, because i had a big day planned ahead of me. 

9:30 i get a text from an old friend 

f:------------ blank 

P: hey how u doing, u sent me a black msg

f: ------------ blank 

p: Hey same thing !! its blank 

F: "God have something great for u this week, so always keep that lovely smile on ur face and received the blessings . u are the best in ur family and hope of all. "

P: aww wow thanks so  much, Amen.. so tell me is that a FWded message, or did u really mean it? either way. ... Amen . how u doing?

F: ha .. naa na. from my heart 

P: thanks i love the spirit 

i sure said a little prayer and hoped on getting my blessing.

went along with my work and all of a sudden i had this restlessness in me. i could not sit down again i could not concentrate and then i walked away. i had to leave.  i wish i could say what this blessing was, but it something i have been praying, fasting and hoping for. I wanna testify so much i donno where to start from i called my mum and she started crying on the phone. 

I know God is real, i know is is able but sometymes we human beings tend to not believe that instead we  take him for granted. i have,  a lot.

This blessing is going to cause a whole lot of changes in my life for the better. Its the perfect assurance that God is out there listening to this little girls cry at night. i love you God. Thanks you father. 

Yeah i know this is random. i have written this down in my diary, and it didnt feel ok. You know that feeling u get when u let sthing out, i didn't get that . I hope i do now. 

Lets say this is my little testimony  for my Annonymous blessing !!!. THANK YOU LORD . 

~ This woman i knoW ~

I know a woman , lovely as can be
When she sings its lights up your spirit
When she laughs , she moves the waters
When she talks, you always want to listen
When she smiles you have to smile back

I know a woman you might not understand
When she says No, its feels like a Yes
When she cries, its like a storm
When she's sad its justified
When she's hurting you are too

I know a woman i am happy i have
When she sees me she knows what wrong
When she calls she lights up my day
When she talks its all wisdom
I know this woman coz she's my Mother ...

His, now Yours

So I am off the phone with a female friend, and all i could think of was to write !!!!.

Before she met you .....

Trust was received at first
Then slowly deceived.
Next, games thats familiar to all
Started as a joke, then slowly turned into something unpredicted.

Truth they say is a safety net, not everyone believes that.
Can you blame her? she doesnt know better.
With something as fragile as trust, once broken, it takes a while to rebuild.
What is trust, if the ones you r to trust wants a bargain out of it?

When she met you..........

It is but a word, but still has great meaning
It is a feeling thats always worth achieving

It has been seen in a wrong way but hopes for the better
Trust is simple it self, it shows you are hers and she is yours

You say you trust her i hope she does too
But can you blame her she hasn't seen better

Be caring and loving coz she has been burnt.
But keep in mind that only trust can fuel the love between you two.

I know its sad
And you are mad

But you have to prove you are you and not him.

Need some help?

So i am walking out of my department with my extreamlly FULL laptop bag, my BIG purse, My art bin  (did i say that was big too ) lol what  can i say i have a lot of shit i need in the studio @ once. So i was walking to my car and there was a bunch of guys standing by the door. So this Guy (that i didnt even notice till this moment said 

Guy: hey seems like you need some help with all of that 

P: lol naa thank you am fyne(really in my head i was like yesss pls help me out )

     Naa thanks i got it my car is right there 

Guy: i dont mean your bags i mean do you need some help with the load behind you ????

P: speachless like u all are. all i cud do was smile (the fakest smile ever and walk away)

No i dont have that big an ass I know i have junk in my trunk,  but dam not that big that i need some help !!!! .... lol

Still havent found a solution to my hard drive problem. well got a better deal for 500.  i am hoping i dont have to do that i am just really hoping. Just found out i could test out of one of my classes which mean "NO SATURDAY CLASS FOR MIII !!!! " yeah !!! lol really i couldnt see my self going to school  on saturdays did that b4 and said i would never.  I feel bad coz we have had 3 classes n i have only been to one and did i mention i was LATE? trust me i am a diciplined student but saturday doesnt count lol . 

My new Job: I LOVE !!!!!! would blog about that .... 

- Night Tyme -

Its late at night and i lay in bed:
With you in my head.

An hour gone by and i am awake wishing you were here holding me tight
Wishing i could just say am sorry

I close my eyes and i can imagine your hands on my lips:
Just the way you do when we about to kiss

i wish you where here
Just because i need you near.
Holding back all my fear