Tuesday, June 10, 2008

- i still love you -



I hate that i am writing this about you
But you have pushed me so far that's all i can
I hate that you make me feel this way
But you have pushed me so far that i cant take this no more.

What more do you need?
Everything humanly possible i have done.
What more do you need?
You say I make you proud
What more do you need?
I give you your due respect
What more do you need?
I sincerely love you

Please understand why I had to come to this.
Please understand this is the only way I can vent without being rude
Please understand i have held this in so much its killing me
Please understand you have made me cry over and over again this time.

I hate this feeling
I hate not talking to you
I hate that i wanna hold on with this childish malice until you see my point
I hate that you SO good at it.

Please understand that this time it hurts more
Please understand that this time its different

I am sorry but i am not apologizing this time
I am sorry coz our culture demands i should
I am sorry because right now i don't care about the culture
I am sorry coz you have pushed me to this

I hope this helps
I hope this makes you understand I have my Limits
I hope this helps you understand how to relate with me
I hope this helps me understand how to accept this in you if it come to that

I know you love me
I know you know i do
I know you care
I know you know i do

But I am sorry , this tyme you have to take the first step.
i still love you........

11 comments:

Jay said...

Beautiful......love it
Emotional piece with so much honesty..

Jay said...

OMG....I AM FIRST

Sherri said...

good for u girl!
stand ur ground...

Miz Arkitect said...

@jarrai: lol yes u 1st !! u didnt realize it b4??
thanks for stopping bye, i guess the best tyme to vent in here is when you feel it the most.

@sherri: i am trying, its hard !!! lol

Enigma said...

I hope he sees this! And be sorry...

Miz Arkitect said...

@enigms: thanks for stopping by.... i hope she does... look @ the pic, its not a he!!!!! Hint:mother n child lol

Enigma said...

oops! my bad! an action taken without thinking! actually just took time to read again and relate with the writings..hmmm. I pretty sure most of the people who's read this thot in the same line as me!

Prince Seun Signature said...

INTERESTINLY NICE... KUDOS LOL...

Miz Arkitect said...

@prince: thanks coming from you !!! lol

trybes said...

Really emotional..was this inspired by a true life story then..i know its been some odd months back though ..

Miz Arkitect said...

Thanx Trybes, it was an emotional tyme. and yes very true!!! funny no one got it was about my mum lol everyone thot it was a guy. so this is the deal my mum and i are very close, that when that happened it hurt soo much i had to write(vent) was funny how we made thou lol LOVE YOU MUM !!!!