- Numero uno -

I CRAVE IT!!
What? I crave sharing my thoughts and feelings.

Finally i know why i feel in love with Mr A , and what i got from him:
the act of shearing my thots and feelings.

I long for this. What exactly?
Oh no I am not sure, but i know I've had it before.
i can feel it.
It seems almost like spiritual closeness.

Complete openness at all level, emotionally, physically, intellectually and even sexually.

Also appreciated, safe, comfortable and finally i have that feeling of @ last, I am home. !!!

O!!!!, and us talking,
simultaneously,
Moves to feelings,
touch,
and then exchange of words.

A conversation going on and on .
Its Amazing how its not hard to find conversation just in words or Sex without conversation . wow the two together with trust and feelings, makes this rare but amazing.

Wanting and longing for this time,
moment to share our thoughts and feelings.
Sometimes keep me awake at night.
What should I call it?

Finally i get it.
When I notice someone Demonstrating Sensitivity of body, heart and mind!!!
Bummm my own sensitivity and strong desire for sharing my thoughts and feelings draws me close.

That's it, Its Communion, simple I Sharing my thoughts and feelings.

-My Journey-

I am on a  journey, 

A journey to Discover the Undiscovered. 

Figured out there's a whole lot about I that's yet to be unleashed.

I feel there is more to Me than I give and see.

I know there is more ...  

Knowing is the first step they say, so the next is actually finding out. 

Cant wait to see what I discover.  

the truth

I close my eyes, and all i could think of is....
I wanna be there, I hear you calling but its trapped, trapped in a distance place.

You wanna express, all you have in.
wanting to have all you had before, but it needs a fight.
Fight against distance, time and goals,
Fight against culture, principles and ethics.
Fight against all i have written down in front of you.

With all this, you getting lost.
We find little time to share, but my laptop takes your place,
or better still i pass you over for exams and presentations.
And finally I realise i take you for granted,

All i have when people ask about you, is pulled out from the past
Telling stories of how we were , but not how we are
Cos thats all i have.
And then it all makes sense.
I miss you
I vow to spend more time gosh its a lie because life gets in the way
All i can say is
I'm sorry
I ignore you
Yet I don't want you to leave me
Please dont.
Just wait, please wait, I promise I'll come back
I just need to get this done
I can't deal with life if you go
Don't leave me.....you made me

TAG !!!

I WAS TAGGED BY DOUG !!! THANKS !!!!

The rules:
1. Link the person(S) who tagged you to this post: doug
2. Mention the rules in your blog
3. Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours
4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them
5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged blogger’s blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged

1. I love my room being pitch black and i use the light from my phone to find my way thru!!!O did i say i am extremely addicted to my phone !!!

2. I listen to the same album very morning when i wake up .

3. i am obsessed with my lip gloss, like really i cant do without it i have back up in my car, my bed side table, my lap top bag and my purse!!!. : )

4. I CANT DO WITH OUT BLACK . i am no Gothic, but i cant explain it. i actually want my braids maids to wear black and a colour like really i have to have a hint of black on my wedding dress.

5. I am quick to get over someone and some thing, simply a realist i guess. all it takes is me know someone or sthing is not right for me and in a sec i am soo over it. my friends say i dont have a heart but i say, why waste my tyme on something i know is obviously not going to work??? it makes life easier. !!!

6. wow what else !!! emmm iight this is all i can think of. i am not like every regular girl , i hate all them mushy mushy stuffvvsss!!! u dont have to lie you wud cross the dam ocean for me coz u wudnt. i wanna know u care through your actions, words are just the icing on the cake. my ans wud be "yeah right" it gets annoying, but that how i feel.... goes back to the saying" action speaks louder than words" whats can i say, that's who i am .......
ps: dot tell me you love me 2 weeks into us dating !!!!!!!! i am still playing nice !!! lol just kidding but really can u tell that soon??? like i said never falling madly in love so i guess i donno the ans.
Ok, i'm done. I hereby tag standtall , anu boy , la reine , neef , unwritten , sherri

Hey !!!!

Hey guys, thanks so much for checking up on me.
Been so lazy to update. wow a whole lot has happened. Its been a mix of the GOOD, the bad and the beautiful lol ... for real, i have been blessed in every way and also had my downs.

my birthday was about a week ago!!!! ( really didnt wanna do anything coz i just didnt wanna think about growing old but hey, its life so i took it as it is and had a fun night with my friends)

Graduation was 3 days ago !!! wooowwww.. finally its over like really my thesis was wonderful, the jury loved it, did I say loved it?? yeah they did lol. i cried right after i left the stage defending my project.It was a cry of joy, relief and satisfaction. everythig came out, just the way i wanted it. I really cant explain this feeling, i tried sooo hard to stop, but it just kept pouring.
It felt good knowing all my hard work was all worth it, all my sleepless night and months of being MIA from Blog vile. lol ... so i gave up, i just let it all out. wow did i feel good after all.
All i cud think about was how much I have always wanted to be an Architect, and how good I am achieving this goal , all thru his grace. The great part was not only did i finish, but i finished well.

Now whats my next step???