IF

If i was a painter,

I would paint a memory
If that's the only way for you to be with me
We would be there together like we used to be
Under the tree, for all to see
I think my brush would take me there.
There is where i want to be.

If i was a painter,
I would paint who i really am
If that's the only way for you to understand me
I would let you know in a simple composition.
I am fragile like a leaf in the autumn, falling without a sound.

If i was a painter,
I would paint the progression,
If that's the only way you can see that every time you say those words,
I put another brick in the foundation.
Soon enough the painting would show you the wall i have built
A wall of ambivalence at the worst and love at best for you .