who's house is it anyways??

Its 11:20pm and i am driving down from German town, which is 1hr 30min from my house. all i could think of was "MY BED" I nearly cried when i looked at my gps and saw i have an hr to go. really i didn't know i was going to make it. Had a long ass day, this drive wasn't one i was ready for. While at my friends send forth get together, i had a blank, unsure look on my face. Why? all i could think about was the drive back. lol 

So i finally got to my street and you need to see the relive on my face. Already had my seat beat off and brought my purse to the front  so all i need to do is open and exit. 

emmm.. like they say, you never know what God has planned. 

So i drive into my parking space and all of a sudden : bang bang bang bang was i could hear on my window. 

A t-shiirt and shorts wearing  (drunk i believe) guy in the d** cold  was banging on my window, asking me to wind it down. With out thinking, i was actually going to until he reached for my door and tried to open. (thank God for auto lock emm) i said what from my closed window and door and all he said "Open the F****** door. Oh hell no he just didnt. i was soo not ready for this. all i culd think of was REVERSE. Gosh i really wanna sleep. 

i put it on reverse and drove down to the next street. kept looking thru the back mirror,  he was running after the car. ok now you all know this whole thing wke my ass up. 

did a lil drive around the next street and tried to drive back to my house with my lights off. emmm too my surprise, this drunk ass guy thinks he is soo slick. so he hides by the side of a car and as i drove closer, he comes to the middle of the road and walking towards the car again. 

"PLS Stop i really need to get some sleep " lol all in my head  

I drove past and he kicked his shoes at the car. Went out of the street and packed. I saw another car coming ad was soo happy. So he did the same to the next car and i was like oh great this wud distract him and i wud run into my house...

yeah riht, i am home alone, the doors here are not like our burglary proof lol ones in Naija if his drunk ass come breaking down the door what am i gonna do b4 the cops or someone gets here??

2secs away from my parking spot again and another 50secs  from my BED!! do i really wanna do this? next thing he leaves the side of the other car and coming running towards my car again. I totally give up, reverse and drove to my girls house. As i made a right to the highway, i was so sleepy and sad, angry that i have to drive another 25min b4 i can lay my heads down.  So much for wanting to sleep on my own BED!!!. 

Am back

So i have been off Blogville for over 3 weeks now, and i most say its been kinda weird....

Reasons

a. MY THESIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY !!!! 6 weeks to go, and i changed my design, which means, new sketches, research, analysis, plans, NEW KINDA STRESS!!!! 

b. Just got my laptop back yesterday !!! yeaaaaa!!!!!!.. Ok i have my good old Dell, but the charger is kinda acting up, so i cant use it without connecting it to the power, hence it defeats the purpose of being a notebook dont you think??

c. My JOB : was a wolf in a sheep's clothing : so i i know i said i was loving my job and all, but i soooo take it back... 

d. School in general men. 

e. did i mention MY JOB? lol naa really its been a big part of it. 

So with all of this, i havent even  had tyme to log on  , talk more of updating. Missed it thou.  A whole lot have happened i donno where to start from. would update 4 sure next week. 

I donno!!! Cry maybe????

Yes i cried as in tears rolling down , me shaking , nose running (lol not that bad but i cried sha)

15min earlier 

So i got an appointment with the apple store for 2:45. i was there at 2:20. 

Didnt call me up to the bar till about 3pm 

So it was a friend of mine, the agent and one of my professors from school

So the agent asked me to turn on my laptop, and b4  i could say anything, he immediately said they cant cover the damage. I was shocked, angry and trying to hold back. i could not get all smart or curse @ him, coz my prof was right there and i was trying to protect the schools name lol So i asked him, why do i have a warranty thats not yet expired and a protection plan if it cant cover a damage? and he kept going back and front about how they wud only cover it if it was a weather damage to the LCD like maybe the heat blah blah . i cudnt stand in front of him, he then said or we could take it in and when we done, we can call you and you can pay the bill. Ok that sounds decent, but how much are we talking about here? $1200..... as you all can see, its like the world is against me or sthing, emm all my enemies wud fall down oh, lol as in first it was my external hard drive, then now my laptop. so i walked out with the anger and pain in my heart. so i called my brother, who infected me with the mac virus and was telling him what happened. he was all oh wow try another store blah blah and if they say the same thing, let me know. and the last straw that broke the camels back he said" wow if that was me , i wud shed a tear, juts one" Immediately from no where i was in the middle of the mall crying like a little girl. i was literally crying the tears cudnt stop running down. i was using my pashmina to wipe it, but it was still pouring (gosh did i hate the look everyone's face around me had on as in like" do u need a shoulder to cry on??"

So i got off the phone with my brother crying and all i could think about was to call my mum. 

told her what happened and she was like is that why you crying? hold up really i know i love my laptop but come on, was that why i was crying??????????? anyways i told her and she gave my Dad the phone. i hate when he does this..... my mum has told him everything i said already, coz i could hear her telling him, and when he got to the phone, he was like. oya what happened???

so i had to try and force words out of my crying voice and he started laughing.. yep thats my Dad, he finds something funny in everything one says. So my mum got back on the phone and asked if my friend was by me , i said yes and she said she wanted to talk to her. She got on the phone with her and was asking her why i was crying ok I AM GROWN MUMMY just coz i am crying dont mean she had to ask my friend why she allowed me cry like she would have stopped me from crying. So my dad got back on the phone and asked what i wanted to do. i told him there was no way i was going to fix a laptop i got for $2000 with $1200. its not even a year old. I was after the cost, my dad was after my education . Yes i know all my designs and projects are on my laptop but its $1200 do you know how many shoesssssssssssssss i can buy with that ??? OH GOD . so he told me i sud do what i have to do to get my project back on track. blah blah this is your last semester (the naija thing came in) the devil knows you going to be great, first it was you hard drive now this. dont let the devil put u down.Go ahead and get a new one and make sure they get all your information back on. You would think i would stop crying then? NO i started even more. he was confussed... P what is it? lol and you say  u tough, why u crying? everything would be ok just go find out how soon you can get you information to a new notebook. 

blah blah balh the conversation went on. 

So yes now i can laugh about it, but i really cant believe i cried. i love my notebook but men its crazy why have an apple care protection BS for $349 and it doesnt cover a CRACK ???????????? so does that justify me crying??? it actually felt good, its been a while since i cried i guess i just cried all for one coz really it could not have been all coz of the notebook. lol 

lost one to get another...

Feeling a lil better. For one, my head dosnt hurt anymore, but the constant coughing and sneezing is messing with my joints men and the worse thing happened to me tonight. So I am over @ my friends place, recovering( isn't it sweet how they don't care if I infect them lol) and I most say, being around people sure helped me feel better, so I got on the bed, all strong n excited and was like, what a perfect tyme to get on blogspot. So I pick up my sexy mac book pro!!!! Lol and what did a hear? A crack ..like more than half of the screen is gone, all I can see is my dock @ the bottom. . Oh no u can't imagine how I feel right now. Like I feel like I just broke an arm of something. Customer service is closed till 6am and I am literally counting down. I donno what I wud do without my lapyyyy to think I have a case so the surface wudnt be scratched if only I knew. So I am here, on my phone updating, coz I can't sleep I need it to be 6am like right now men. So my plan is to call them at 6am and also be the first at the apple store tomorrow. I wish this was all a dream men :(

-Rule #No 1: Initials or First Name Please-

I wanted to blog about this last night, but i was soo sleepy .. Here it goes 
12:35pm Knock on my door. i know  well enough  i wasn't  expecting anyone .
Peeped from the window ...UPS: emm not expecting a mail either...

So i opened up and then,  2boxes : 1. Flowers, 2. Gift box  (yes Honeywell the 1800 flowers one lol gosh why did u have to soo jinx me???)  :(

So i opened the box of flowers  and was hopping i didnt sleep thru tues,n wed coz i know dam well Valentines day is not till Thursday.
 1st thing first i reached out for the card.
It was the sweetest note eva. and ended with "I hope we get to spend more of this in years to come" NO NAME NO INITIAL NOTHING !!!! how the hell am i to know who sent it. 

Opened the next box ,  A perfume "Pleasures by Estee lauder " emm I LOVE !!! (this person knows me well) with a note: "love you baby." NO INITAL OR NAME Again !!!!! 

 I was thorn between 3 guys , and i know i couldn't get it wrong. 

So i called the 3rd guy, we spoke for about 5min and i knew right away it wasnt him, coz he was still talking about oo can i see you this weekend blah blah so One down 2 to go. its between MR Untitled and MR ex.
So i called Mr Ex, tried to make the conversation as casual as possible, and trying so hard to find out if he was the one without spilling the beans. Any how yep i spilled the beans coz he used a line in the note and i was soo sure he was the one. i went ahead to say thanks blah blah and how he shouldnt have and blah blah and how he's making this breakup more difficult.( i love flowers n the perfume,  but i was trying not to show that. i was trying to make him think i meant it, "YOU SHOULDNT HAVE" . 
OMG i shouldnt have. i should have let him say what he had to say right when he said "Paradigm hold up" . But no i was focusing on how he's  making things harder and the note was so inappropriate, 
Finally i was done, and he was like" P its not Valentains day yet, i didnt send you a perfume, or flowers through the mail. Why wud i when i can come drop it my self. But i guess i get the message , I knew it was anther guy all along you should have just told me and saved me the trouble by asking you on and on.  Let me dont hold you up, go ahead and say your thank you to the right person. I just wish you told me why you wanted to break up and not come up with some excuss. what am i saying??, No excuss at that"
I was speechless, couldn't say a word. @ all coz i felt bad, not that i called the wrong person, but that he actually thot i broke up with him because of MR Untitled. Its soo not the reason and i didnt want him to think that way. i felt that wasnt fair at all. 

 So i get off the phone and immediately Mr Untitled called(if only i waited an extra Hour all that drama wouldn't have happened. 

Started off like every regular conversation and acting like he didn't  send me nothing (So honeywell there was no way i would have gotten my flowers in person until MArch ... emmm still in person would have been better thou lol )

Then i asked him if it was already the 14th in Naija, and he laughed and said he was actually praying they would have a delay n not deliver early till the 14th blah blah and how he had to travel out of town and also  make sure i got the gifts. 

We talked for a while and i knew i had to get off the phone and clear things out with my ex. not like i was guilty, but just coz i wanted to remain friends with him and this for sure was messing that all up      :( 

I know he listens !!!! try him

Today started like every other day, call from my ex waking me up, going to the bathroom and then saying a little prayer. (i need to get closer to my God men) 

i went down stairs, trying to get some work done as soon as possible, because i had a big day planned ahead of me. 

9:30 i get a text from an old friend 

f:------------ blank 

P: hey how u doing, u sent me a black msg

f: ------------ blank 

p: Hey same thing !! its blank 

F: "God have something great for u this week, so always keep that lovely smile on ur face and received the blessings . u are the best in ur family and hope of all. "

P: aww wow thanks so  much, Amen.. so tell me is that a FWded message, or did u really mean it? either way. ... Amen . how u doing?

F: ha .. naa na. from my heart 

P: thanks i love the spirit 

i sure said a little prayer and hoped on getting my blessing.

went along with my work and all of a sudden i had this restlessness in me. i could not sit down again i could not concentrate and then i walked away. i had to leave.  i wish i could say what this blessing was, but it something i have been praying, fasting and hoping for. I wanna testify so much i donno where to start from i called my mum and she started crying on the phone. 

I know God is real, i know is is able but sometymes we human beings tend to not believe that instead we  take him for granted. i have,  a lot.

This blessing is going to cause a whole lot of changes in my life for the better. Its the perfect assurance that God is out there listening to this little girls cry at night. i love you God. Thanks you father. 

Yeah i know this is random. i have written this down in my diary, and it didnt feel ok. You know that feeling u get when u let sthing out, i didn't get that . I hope i do now. 

Lets say this is my little testimony  for my Annonymous blessing !!!. THANK YOU LORD . 

~ This woman i knoW ~

I know a woman , lovely as can be
When she sings its lights up your spirit
When she laughs , she moves the waters
When she talks, you always want to listen
When she smiles you have to smile back

I know a woman you might not understand
When she says No, its feels like a Yes
When she cries, its like a storm
When she's sad its justified
When she's hurting you are too

I know a woman i am happy i have
When she sees me she knows what wrong
When she calls she lights up my day
When she talks its all wisdom
I know this woman coz she's my Mother ...

His, now Yours

So I am off the phone with a female friend, and all i could think of was to write !!!!.

Before she met you .....

Trust was received at first
Then slowly deceived.
Next, games thats familiar to all
Started as a joke, then slowly turned into something unpredicted.

Truth they say is a safety net, not everyone believes that.
Can you blame her? she doesnt know better.
With something as fragile as trust, once broken, it takes a while to rebuild.
What is trust, if the ones you r to trust wants a bargain out of it?

When she met you..........

It is but a word, but still has great meaning
It is a feeling thats always worth achieving

It has been seen in a wrong way but hopes for the better
Trust is simple it self, it shows you are hers and she is yours

You say you trust her i hope she does too
But can you blame her she hasn't seen better

Be caring and loving coz she has been burnt.
But keep in mind that only trust can fuel the love between you two.

I know its sad
And you are mad

But you have to prove you are you and not him.

Need some help?

So i am walking out of my department with my extreamlly FULL laptop bag, my BIG purse, My art bin  (did i say that was big too ) lol what  can i say i have a lot of shit i need in the studio @ once. So i was walking to my car and there was a bunch of guys standing by the door. So this Guy (that i didnt even notice till this moment said 

Guy: hey seems like you need some help with all of that 

P: lol naa thank you am fyne(really in my head i was like yesss pls help me out )

     Naa thanks i got it my car is right there 

Guy: i dont mean your bags i mean do you need some help with the load behind you ????

P: speachless like u all are. all i cud do was smile (the fakest smile ever and walk away)

No i dont have that big an ass I know i have junk in my trunk,  but dam not that big that i need some help !!!! .... lol

Still havent found a solution to my hard drive problem. well got a better deal for 500.  i am hoping i dont have to do that i am just really hoping. Just found out i could test out of one of my classes which mean "NO SATURDAY CLASS FOR MIII !!!! " yeah !!! lol really i couldnt see my self going to school  on saturdays did that b4 and said i would never.  I feel bad coz we have had 3 classes n i have only been to one and did i mention i was LATE? trust me i am a diciplined student but saturday doesnt count lol . 

My new Job: I LOVE !!!!!! would blog about that .... 

- Night Tyme -

Its late at night and i lay in bed:
With you in my head.

An hour gone by and i am awake wishing you were here holding me tight
Wishing i could just say am sorry

I close my eyes and i can imagine your hands on my lips:
Just the way you do when we about to kiss

i wish you where here
Just because i need you near.
Holding back all my fear

MIA

Hey guys i know its been a while. I thot the fact that i had just 2 classes this semester, i would have all the tyme in the world to blog n have a life. Thats a big joke. My thesis and grad school applications are driving me crazy. For one, its taking me for eva to write up a personal statement. Ok i know exactly what i want to write, but my problem is how to start this whole write up. Also gathering up my potfolio is killing me. for the fact that my flash drives that has half of my college and career work IS MISSING !!! i know i should be more tensed than i am right now, but where is that gonna get me? I feel so empty without them i had a back up, but how nice, my external hard drive isnt working. for some funny reason no computer is recognizing it so i went to the Geek squad to see if they could retrive my documents for me and guess what ? Well they said to start up, i am looking at $1800. lol a joke right ? I wish. I guess i would figure out what to do as soon as possible. i need to get my personal statement ready first and my potfolio comes in when i get an interview so i guess i would take it one step at a time.

There you go Honey well that why i have been MIA.

Update:

So i have been busy to blog, but i must confess not too busy for Mr Untitiled. lol

what more can i say, we getting closer n i am falling deeper.lol  

He plans on coming over early March wow you can only imagin how excited i feel and how much i am looking fwd to his visit. 

Still talking with the Ex, yes he is the Ex now but he still wants a reason !!!! Ok really i know i would love to know the reason why someone wants to break up with me, but if its taking them over a week i think i would get the message and stop asking. Well like i said "if it was me" So lets just say he's not giving up. 

i kinda miss him thou ....... oops did i say that out loud????

facebook has done it again

So i got this message tonight and i remembered the post "Honeywell" had about the message sent to her friend. i had to share........ (facebook messages)

Ist one
Subject: Princess Paradigm (.... princess???)

compliments my sweet sister
u look like the 1st creation with that ur angelic
smile. u also seem graciously immaculate and fascinatingly flambouyant. i 'll like to know a little more about u . get in touch pls, tell me more about ur social side.
# 6*******

No reply... 3hrs later another message

Subject :Baby

Hello sister, u look immaculately hot and sexy. were u born on a sunday morning ? i 'll like to know more about u pls call me or send your number ..6*********

*** ok "graciously immaculate and fascinatingly flambouyant." who says that ???? like really what happened to the hello how are you doing?
and "were u born on a sunday" can someone break that down for me ????
and really did he have to us all those words??????
Still laughing here. i wish i cud be that BOLD...........

.............................. blah blah blah .................................

Mr u: i miss taking you around and talking dirty lol architecture i mean
P: lol u funny i miss that too
Mr u: how have you been?
P: i have been lovely and you?
Mr u: just ok. work is fyne, family great, me : missing u .
P; lol thats funny
Mr u: naa am 4 real. i know i promised i wasnt going to force and rush things but i feel if i dont tell you how i feel its my loss.
P: Untitled pls dont
Mr u: pls dont make me lie to my self. i thot if you left things where going to slowly go back to normal, but its not, and the best part is , i dont want it to. I love the way i feel about you , i love the way i feel when my lil niece mentions your name, or i think of you. i love ...
P: Pls stop pls stop you making this harder
Mr U: i know i am being selfish, I know you are confused right now and need tyme to sort things out, but i do not want to make things more difficult for you but all i ask for is you take your tyme and sort things out. dont tag me along just to tell me u just wanna be friends. do what ur heart wants and if i am involved i wud be the happiest man on earth .
P...........(silent or sud i say speechless)
Mr u: are you there p?
P: yes i am
Mr U: pls say sthing . was i the only one that felt something the day u left? that kiss meant a lot to me. can u tell me u didnt feel nothing?
P: silent
MR U": paradigm pls talk to me
P: i donno ........that kiss wasnt meant to happen
MrU: but it did ... n thats not my question
P: i donno what i felt ( gosh was i sooooooo lieing i know how exactly i felt i still feel my heart racing when i think about it)
Mr u: P thats fyne u dont have to say nothing right now. I am here when ever you ready.
P: thanks for understanding
P:oo guess what i got a job offer as a freelancer !!!!!
Mr u: o wow babes that's great how, when, whats it about?
P: yesterday they saw sthing i worked on n contacted me , also i need more experience in graphic designs i guess i have been concentrating more on architecture i thot i do sthing different.
Mr u: thats nice happy for you.

................... blah blah blah blah ......................

Mr untitled and i have been talking everyday, maybe every other hr. its been great but i hate it wen our conversation gets to this turn. Gosh he is so what i want. but am i sure? thats what i know , just what i know. Well as per my bf. we talked yesterday thats a whole another story. told him i meant it when i said things are not working even thou he is still saying we cud work things out, i think i was more sure and he got the point. i promise this has nothing to do with mr untitled, but its something i need to do. I feel bad i am tagging him along and i dont feel the same way he does. I fell ,why say i am his gf if i dont act, think, feel that way. I feel i am hurting him more by not ending this now. so i stood by my ground last night and told him.
Gosh i hate break ups!!!

-His Taste-

I wasn't going to blog about this, but Dl asked the funniest question!!!"has he kissed u yet? what does he taste like? lemon? shit? abeg update oooo"

So i decided to title this post, "His Taste" before i start, i know for sure its not like shit, lol but not too sure about lemon.....

13min B4 knowing:

its 12:30pm and i am rushing into town. I have just 3 hrs to spend with Mr untitled today before i fly out, and i hope we have as much fun as we normally do. Last night didnt end too good coz i was ansing a whole lot of questions. Questions that has to do with him, me and my bf. Am i going to leave the devil i know for the angel i barley know? am i going to loss the what seem perfect for the very imperfect? how am i going to let my bf know i really want out? am i getting out coz of me or coz of MR untitled?? what do i really want? what does God want for me? how..........."Phone ringing, interrupting my recollection process"

Mr U: sorry am running late, the meeting took longer than i expected.

P: thanks fyne i am not there yet should be there in 10min

Mr: oh cool i guess i would be there before you than, was worried i kept you waiting

P: na u didnt call u when i get there

Mr U: ok then

... so where was I? yeah How do i know .. how do i know what ? gosh his call messed my whole thinking process up.. anyways what eva i am just going to enjoy this day and i guess see what time has in stock for us.

I get out of the car to meet him gave him a hug as usual and immediately his face was in front of mine. I could barely feel his lips at first. was so soft it could have been a rush of air over my lips. Immediately, my eyes closed shut in response, the absence of one sense( sight) alerted the other four. Especially the one i want in particular( touch) Two more gentle brushes of what felt like air( am i imagining them i thot) Eager to feel his flesh against mine. The next touch of his lips takes away the notion from my mind, The thot that this is an imagination. There is pressure now, firm but soft, cool yet warm, sweet yet minty. The warmth from his touch moves into me through the union of our lips causing "real" butterflies to rise in my stomach, my palms sweaty and my heart raceing.... dum dum dum i could feel his too. I love the feel of his lip. I was surprised that angular face of his could contain anything soft. so soft, so delicate, so .... wonderful. As i think this, his lips part, but not too much, just enough to trap my upper lips a hint of a nibble and a suck is all i get...... : ( Dont stop now, i want more is all i thot.

I part my own lips in response trapping his upper lips now. Its luscious and thick. the tip of my tongue flicks out, am eager to taste.... he groans in response, I release his lower lips, and our mouth fused once more. this tyme, they open simultaneously, creating something huge just waiting to explode. with butterflies still in my stomach and both hearts pumping so fast, instead of plunging his tongue in, he starts to trace da outline of my mouth, punishing me with my imagination of his talented tongue just on the edge of my knowledge. Trying so hard to think, everything about him is power play, with no doubt, he would say the same thing about me. I thot it was part of what makes our kiss so exciting,.. finally i give in. my tongue goes deep into his mouth, investigating the sweetness there. he tasted of a fragrant wine, it was rich,powerful and heady. It left me slightly drunk and defiantly craving for more. I then rolled his taste on my tongue like a fine expert. emm absolutely delicious. Upon my verdict, his tongue reaches out to taste mine as well . My eyes squeezing shut as i wonder what he tastes in me. The craving within became almost too much to bear.

I need to reciprocate. I need to touch him too. The mere meeting of our mouth isnt enough to capture the sinful richness of this man. My fingers reached out hesitantly at first, i pushed back. then again brushing slowly against the razor sharp edge of his cheek. wow this was the only touch we share, he then leans into my lands, encouraging me. i cup his cheek with my warm palm. My fingers trace sensuously along his jaw line, tracing the strong features of his face that i know by heart,

I reach out with my left hand as well now, cupping his face as I pour my desire into our kiss.
His tongue grows more daring now, stroking against mine , tracing it from every angle. It is an artist’s paintbrush, his paint brush gentle and so sure, creating a master piece and beauty within me. Or maybe it just reveals the beauty that was already there... lol
Oh god! The things his tongue is doing are anything but innocent. He finds every spot that makes me gasp showers them with attention... His moves, reaching out to gently hold my waist in place as he kisses me breathless. I know the skill of those fingers, the innovative ways in which they make love to my body... did i say make love?? yess thats how i felt ...Yet they remain still, content merely to hold me for the moment.
With his touch, the burning passion within him finally rises to its highest flame. His mouth becomes possessive, over mine, pouring out every emotion in his poet’s heart, showing his......... ring ring ring ring .. oh no, not my phone. Immediatly i pulled away. was i dreaming? was it an immagination? the look on his face made me realize it was all real. Oh no i tried so hard to avoid this. not like i regreat it, but now i know this is going to make this hard. so hard for me to let go. I pick up the call just so as to break the ice. I felt shy??? did i say shy?? yess ...why ,? i had no clue. i had no idea who was on the line and what i said all i had in mind was the kiss, his taste............

Pre - His Taste-

Just







days b4 i leave n Mr untitled said he wanted to take me somewhere special!!!( doesnt he always say that?) .I got dressed, took extra time i guess i just wanted to look really nice for him and also be ready for any other princess or queens of his castle. lol (just kidden) .

Getting to the area, all i cud see was residential houses (i know well enuf he wasnt working on any at the moment .. he told me every building he was working on) so i asked and he had this annoying smile on saying well i wanted you to meet someone special or should i say someone thats very special to me wanna meet you. I froze for a sec and said what? Yes it was his mother and hell yes i wasnt going in. Well after 20min of constant back n forth, i finally went in with him.

Meeting Mrs Untitled :
Mr U : hey mom we here
P:"we here?? gosh why does that sound so scary !!!!"
Mom: just a sec darling wud be with you guys
Princess : Uncle Uncle you made it
Mr U: hello my princess how r u?
P: hey hon how have u been?
Princess: am fyne thank you and you?
P: been lovely
Mr U: where is your mum?
Princess: she dropped me off and said she would come get me later.
Mom: hello my dear you most be Paradigm
Princess: grand ma , grand ma, i told you she was pretty

"wink" lol

P: yes i am ma. nice to meet you........"had this smile on i had no idea weather it looked cheesy, fake or real"
"his mom had the cutest hair eva its was all grey with little strikes of black gosh i made a quick prayer"lord pls let me age this way "lol
Mom: so since MR U made it soo clear to me that i should not bug you, because you guys are just "friends!!!!" i am trying soo hard not to wanna see you again. but friends do visit each others family dont they ?
P : lol yes they do ma'am . @ Mr u: i gave him a lil pinch coz of the way he made his mom emphasis on the just friends it was soo obvious it was my idea....
Mr u: trust me i know my mom, u wud run out n i dont wanna loss you
p : yeah yeah what eva,(he hates when i say that )
So we all had a little chat n had lunch. Princess was the central of attention isnt she always? (trust me i am not jealous of an 11 year old.....). She had a story to tell about every thing we talked about on the table no matter how slightly related it is, in her own little world she had a similar experience. After lunch, which i most say, wasnt as bad as i thot, Mr untitled excuse himself and I. We got ready and princess asked if she would see me again, all i could say was definitely some day. she wasnt too pleased with my ans and looked at Mr untitled and said "you better make her come back" he then told her, " its all depends on her she's the one that needs to make up her mind"-- No he didnt have to put me on the spot like that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well his mum walked us outside after we both exchanged pleasantries. " I hope to see you again dear and maybe then both of you would have taken off the fake sticker of "we just friends" on your forehead's" .... we all laughed and got in the car.

]The rest of the day was fun but sad @ the same tyme. We both realized i would be out of here in less than 24hr, no more archi talks one on one, no more long ass lunch breaks, site seeing , constant laughs and BIG tyme flirting....

why did we have to meet right b4 i was about to leave?

why did he have to move back to Naija?

why now?

He asked what i thot about long distance relationship, my ans wasnt too encouraging he said. but really i have been in one b4 and i didnt like it. the pain in missing someone isnt really worth the rush of excitement when you met them after a while. you grow apart no matter how much you talk on the phone and is just too painful. I really wasn't ready to go through that again and at the same tyme, i really wasn't ready to loos my Mr Architect .

Mr Untitlied and his Princess ( Not me .. i wish )

Dl has been asking for an update on Mr untitled... A lot has been going on but I still cant find that dirt. I know its such little tyme but there have to be some dirt.

Here it goes : UPDATE!!!

So Mr untitled and I have been hanging out a little too much on the name of “architecture” yeah right. We both know its more to it than our passion for architecture. Its been amazing I most say, so amazing that I forgot I have a BF… “oh shit I have a bf. Need to call him back. Been saying I was going to call back for ages now” anyways he has been taking me to different kinda building type : lounge , restaurants , bars ...... Not just to the places, but we go and talk about the architecture too” my kinda date” lol I know I am weired, see why a non architect or non art lover would be miserable with me around…. anyways we have been talking about our selves all thru and i feel like i have know him for over 2 years now. ( i cant believe i am saying this) anyways i am so scared for the weekend to come coz i feel this thing "what should i call it?" fling? game? friendship? WHAT??? would end pretty soon.

Stupid me:

So i have been looking extra hard for any flaw Mr untitled has and its gotten me a lil bit paranoid.
"This was really embarrassing"
----Mr Untitled and I at a lounge ---
we were talking and all of a sudden someone walks by
Some1: Hey Untitled how you doing?
Untitled: Am doing good and You? Its been a while
S: Yeah Been busy with work you know how it is
U: Oh am sorry this is Paradigm , Paradigm met Someone.
P: Nice to meet you. S had this wired smile on saying nice to meet you too, "winked @ U n asked : So howz ur princess??
P:WHAT?? Princess?? ok God i wanted to know his dirt but not like this......."hold up why u getting worked up?you guys arent dating...naa but he told me he had no one - SELF STOP - stop calm down and listen ------

U: she is doing wonderful asked after you told her we wud come see you later this week.
S: that would be great looking fwd to it. i would let madam know so we can all hang.
S: nice to meet you paradigm
P:same her "smile wipped off tried to fake it, cudnt work"
U: bye then.

So he left and MR U kept smiling and asked if i was ok after apologizing for taking my tyme i said it was ok but still had a straight face on. we finished up, and he dropped me up and asked if he could come in ... "i dont think its a good idea " was my response. "ok then sorry i pushed" was his. he drove off and called me later. we only talked for about a min coz i faked being sleepy.

The next day was already planned b4 sun rise .
We where to meet @ a spot to have ice cream n get lunch after. While @ home i was trying so hard to get over what i heard the night b4 ok really why was i mad? was it coz i was beginning to like him? but come on you have a bf n u tripping coz he has a "PRINCESS" how cheesy i said lol . so i tried to get my self off that selfish mode and got dressed up n ready to leave.
As soon as i saw him that anger rushed in. why?
He looked as sexy as eva gosh he knows how to dress. he was always looking on point and today wasn't different . the thot of him having a "princess" made me angry .....he came walking by me with this big smile on and as soon as he saw my face, his wiped off. he asked again what was wrong n i stood by my " i am ok" he asked again and said " its ok if you mad at something, just tell me you dont feel like talking about it right now." " Yes there is something wrong, but i dont feel like talking about it right now " i said ---. "Ok then thanks for telling me, i hope you feel better n can tell me later coz its affecting me and our time" he said. Our tyme? what does he mean our tyme ? lol i laughed. we walked in the shop and stood on the line. it was kinda a long one. kids are still on holiday so it looked like they where all out there ...
2 more people in front, thank God
"Uncle. uncle" - from a cute lil girl standing at the door running toward me.
hey my princess- from right behind my ears.
YES she is the princess. His Niece. she ran into his arms and he gave her a big hug (gosh i want dirts not things to make me fall deeper)
hey princess i want u to meet someone.
U: princess this is paradigm .. p , meet my lil princess Ola.
P: speechless for a sec" looking @ MR U and feeling so stupid for giving him an attitude all along "
P: Nice to met you sweet heart i love your purse ( she had the cutest purse a girl of her age can have on ")
Princess: thank you i love your shoes .
P: thanks hon. How old are you?
Princess: i am 11
U: going on 31 lol
Princess: no am not.
P: lol nice to meet you
U: where's ur mum?
Princess: she is at the door talking to a friend .......
Yes it was his niece
yes i felt stupid
yes i still feel stupid
Yes i think he knew that was why i had an attitude
Yes he asked
yes i denied it lol
yes she is adorable
Yes i like him
yes i need some dirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just one wud be fyne ...

He cant be all perfect can he?

Tag

I was tagged by Desperate lady, i haven't done this before either so bear with me guys .

Two Names you go by:

1) Aj

2) P

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:

1) Pj's

2) my glasses

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:

1) trust n understanding

2) love n romance

Two of your favorite things to do:

1) paint

2) laugh

Two things you want very badly at the moment:

1) another vacation

2) my jill scott's cd

Two pets you had/have:

1) a fish - i actually almost flushed her down coz i had to travel on vacation so i gave her out instead. : (

2) fish (still alive lol) : )

Two people you think will fill this out:

1) N.E.E.F

2) Honeywell

Two thigs you did last night:

1) went out with friends

2) danceddddddddddddd

Two things you ate last night:

1) spring roll

2) more spring roll lol

Two people you last talked to:

1) my lost best friend i haven't spoken to in 5 years

2) Mr Untitled "wink wink "

Two things you're doing tomorrow:

1) going to the bank

2) lunch with Mr untitled "double wink " lol

Two longest car rides:

1) Atlanta to Baltimore

2) -------------------

Two favourite holidays:

1) Christmas

2) thanksgiving !!!

Favourite Beverages:

1) Water

2) coffee !!!!

Person no longer alive you'd like to talk to:

1) Grandma

2) E ( high school class mate)

Thanks DL now i feel the way u did. This sounds boring... i read throu and was like emmm do i post this???
Here it is anyways .. thanks for tagging miii...

i hereby tag: Neef, Honeywell, rethots, little miss me, Undaconstruction, the scribe and my perspective !!! enjoy

Thanks yall for stopping by !!!!

Hope she loves it !!!

OR

Ok this sounded so hilarious that i had to share .
So i went out last night with my brother, sister and his and my friends. We all met up at my brothers house and i was introduced to a guy by my brother.
Brother: Hey met my lil sis Paradigm
Guy: Nice to meet you i am guy ( i wish i cud use his name to make this sound better lol)
P: Same here i am Paradigm
Brother: you two talk and yeah Paradigm did i tell you he loves parrot???
P:"in my head" ok why did he just say that? i was as lost as you all are right now. I was wondering why my brother said that, but thats all he said and walked away so i asked the guy and he found a nice way to shove it off.
................. we later got to the lounge and the guy called my brother out and warned him not to talk about the parrot Gosh was i now more eager to hear what the parrot was all about......
So the next day, we all had to go visit my lil brother @ school and we ( my older brother, sis, and i) where all talking about last night so i remembered i wanted to hear the parrot story. perfect tyming and perfect person. My brother loves to tell a story and swears he can ALWAYS be funny.
My bother: aiight you all need to hear this, mummy come on you too. So my friend Guy and i where talking and jisting about our experiences with falling deeply in love with a lady and was shearing things that we have done that where really stupid. when i heard his story, i couldn't even say my coz his was way crazy.
the story: the guy had this babe that he was dating and was soo in love with her right so it was her birthday and he was thinking of the perfect gift to get for her. he then decided to get a parrot... yes a PARROT and said he was going to train it to say " Guy loves you " guy loves you" ..... and to him the trip would be when her guy friends come to visit her, the parrot would keep going "guy loves you" guy loves you" ...

ok this sounded really funny in person as in we where all cracking up laughing like crazy. how love can make some people think of really creative "funny" gift ideas. I am sure it was from a good heart. But come on a parrot??? call her and send a text message lol.

The Kiss

That first kiss

That childlike kiss

The kiss on the check

Then slowly to the lips

That kiss we both long for

That who the hell cares kiss

That kiss that makes my toes curl

That kiss that opens door

That kiss that starts the unforgettable

That kiss that makes me numb

That Kiss, that kiss I miss

- QUESTIONS -

When do u draw the line?
When do you say you have had enough?
When is the world going to see it from your point of view?
When can it almost drive you crazy?
When is it ok to walk out?

Questions I ask my self when i hear about an unfaithful boyfriend or husband. I have been talking to a friend (more like an aunt) of mine who is married by the way for 5 years now and from the day after her honeymoon, she has been suspecting her husband of infidelity. Ok did i say suspecting? She actually knows, he confesses and cries and do it all over again.

Its just 5 years, what would happen when they get to 10? or 25?
How would she feel?
Who would she be?
She would have lost her identity i say trying to make things work.
She would loss trust ( if she already hasnt)
She would build hatred in her poor little heart for a man she truly loves.
She would regret the day she said I DO.

What do i say ? Do i keep telling her to hang in there ? DO i really think he would change? I pray he does cos he is hurting her So bad its telling on her So bad she cant even imagine he could change So what do i say?

I love my friend don't get me wrong,
But i hate being around coz of her sad story
I hate being around coz i am afraid i am going to burst out and tell her to WALK AWAY
I hate being around because i don't want to hate men like she does
I am not saying i don't want to be a friends and listen
But i see my self forced to tell her how i feel.

How do i feel? I have sat down and thot about her condition I know my feelings might not be surreal because i am not married But dam its still ones heart Its still ones feeling Can i take half of what she is taking ? Can i allow a man take advantage of my submission and love ? God pls dont make me have to have a reason to ans this question. Because i am scared of what my ans would be. I am scared i am not made that way I am scared i am too weak to deal with that.

So what should she do?
Sit back and wait till he comes back home
Scared as hell of what he might bring home?
Aids is real dum ass didn't you get the memo
Should she hold back of his right?
Should she not enjoy her right?
But of what point is it when u scared of the unknown?
Gosh its so much questions that needs an answer
Why should one get into the institution of married only to regret it?

So really WHEN is the question... 5 years of anger, tears, hatred, questions, and heart break Should she wait for another 5 ?
Or maybe 10? Should she keep hoping ? Or should she count it as a loss and WALK AWAY ???

Black or White

Its either Hot or cold,
black or white,
yes or no,
right or wrong,
Male or female
Love or Lust.

Love is blind they say,
Lust has eyes, eyes that are wide open for games.
Love can be seen as day
Lust is the night
Love is simply true,
Lust sits quiet thinking of the next game.
Love need not be beautiful but lust makes it a pre-requisite
Love can stand through thick and thin
Lust can not.
By its nature it thrives

Love is white as snow, pure at heart
Lust fights in mud for its desires.
I can offer you love, not lust,
I am afraid you might not like it
So should i say i love and lust you?
Because of this, love shall hold hands with lust,
cuddle, kiss and even make love
then love and lust becomes one to us.
It may last it may not.

-Paradigm-

(nb: has nothing to do with Mr untitled lol something i wrote a while ago and just came across )

contd. "confussed "

12:05 ( i am running late, i really didnt mean to but i always happen to get lost in abuja)
So i meet up with Mr untitled at the ring road round about. he comes out of the car and gives me a hug and asked me to drive behind him. Finally we get to the site. ( i have been driving pass it and wondering what it was !!! now i get a tour !! yepiii )
We get on site and he gives me a construction cap to wear i was skeptical about putting it on and he whispered that he got a new one from the office for me. i tried to snap out of it and realize that this is the real world n i have to stop being picky.
we went round the building and he was all after if i was ok and making sure i dont trip or not ( i came prepared with my flats wasnt ready for any surprises)
After the whole tour, i most say i was impressed the building definitely had an outside touch to it. it wasnt like every other building you see around. It had this contemporary style and for one, IT FOLLOWED SOME KINDA CODE. (finally someone is thinking about ADA, fire, evacuation, and life cycle of a building)
after this, he asked if i wanted to have a drink and talk for about an hour.
ring ring ring ring ( caller ID : BOYFRIEND )
one part of me didnt wanna pick up, another part of me wanted to . So i excused my self and answered the call
P: hello
BF: hey baby how u doing?
P: am lovely and u?
BF: pls change your arrival date i miss you
P: lol its just 1 week to go
BF: just?
P: lol
Bf: r u busy ?
P: yeah out with a friend
BF: WHO?( his insecure self comes out)
P: a friend i met
BF: a guy or a girl?
P: does that matter?
Bf: baby pls just ans
P: a guy if u most know
Bf: sud i be worried?
P: maybe ...lol just joking
Bf: i hate when u do that
P: i hate when u worry
BF: My mum sends her love
P: O howz she doing?
P: O baby i have to run can i call u later ?
Bf: why are u rushing me off the phone?
P: i am not just have to call u back
Bf: i love you
P: ok bye
BF: i said i love you !!!
p: hello i cant hear you, wud call u later
( gosh i was lying i could hear him , everything he said. but Mr untitled was right by my side. i wasn't ready to let him know i have a man. ( was i wrong?) didnt care at the moment.
Untitled: if u dont mind me asking who's that?
P: i do mind
U: o am sorry
P: naa thats fyne that was my friend from school
U: cool so tell me do you have a bf ?
P: u mean me?( ok yes i said that, i wasnt ready i had no clue he was going to bring that up, not right there !!)
P: not sure
u: lol u funny what u mean u not sure?
P: am not too sure where we left things when i came for the holidays ( well there is an atom of truth in that one sha, really i have been having mixed feeling and told him we needed to talk when i get back so some how i wasn't lying)
U: well i hope u find out soon.
P: i hope so too.
U: anyways let got get something to drink and talk about sthing else
P: sure
So we went somewhere and had a couple of drinks he said he had to work from home and didnt need to go back to the office so our 1hr drink date stretched to 3hrs. At the back of my mind i was scared God i have only know this man for only 2 days and i am falling( i never accept it ) so i snapped out of it and told him i had to go . he didn't object and even apologized for taking over an hr.
he asked when he was going to see me again and i said i wasn't sure. he said that was fyne and asked if he could call later that night.
We talked and i am still falling lol being avoiding him because i am going deeper. i am about to leave and not ready for a long distance crap. (been there done that never again)
Last night he asked if i was or wud be interested in getting to know each other more b4 i leave and i said i wasn't sure. he laughed it over and told me how he felt .. the usual blah blah blah Naija babe tripping for what he has and wen they hear his accent they fake theres, you know that annoying fake accent. and them being closed minded and blah blah blah blah. ( i laughed coz that was the same thing my brother said when he came back home to work)
Anyways when eva Untitled comes on on my caller ID, i have the cheesiest smile and blush...... i feel guilty coz i know the thots i have in my head (no actions yet) But one part of me wanna enjoy this and you never know, maybe Mr untitled is my Mr Architect i always wanted. : )

Pashmina Vs Tie

Hey guys, sorry i have been MIA for a while and haven't updated any post. Why? I CANT STAND THE SLOW INTERNET SERVICE IN NAIJA. so since i still have about a week, i thot i might as well get used to it and just do what i have to do.

So here it goes. So far so good, i have been having a blast. I wish i haven't been travelling as much thou so i can at least have a long term kinda fun.

Lagos was scary, Calabar was beautify, Kaduna was different, Abuja is home.

So i have decided not to travel again and sit my ass in Abuja till i leave its been working for over 3 days now and i most say its going on fyne.
Hooked up with a couple of old friends, and making new ones,
Met all kind of guys and i most say they where all different in their own way. Of all of then i was quick to say oh yeah i have a boy friend until Mr untitled came by.

I was going to confirm my return ticket, and there he was nicely dressed with the sexiest tie i have seen lately. ( yeah i said sexy. there was something about the tie and his smile that made it so sexy. i could only imagine how horrible the next guy would look with it on.)
Tie: i love your Pashmina ( funny enuf it was my fav)
P: thank you ( walking along)
Tie: i cudnt see you with a shade lighter.
P: I guess my boyfriend made the perfect pick then. (gosh i was soo lying)
Tie: (laughing out loud ) i like that
P: wots funny?
Tie: you! trying to push my away before even talking to me or even looking @ me
me: u sure its worth my tyme
Tie: i promise it is
anyways we kept going back and forth until i got to my car wondering ok is he going to stop !!! not like i wanted him to . So i finally turned and gosh he got me with that smile of his. we later exchanged numbers and i left.
right b4 i got out of the gate, my phone rang ( unnamed number !!! it has to be him )
p: hello
Tie: why where u steering @ my tie?
p: who is dis?
Tie: come on like you werent expecting my call
p: i really wasnt. u didnt come to me as the kinda guy that wud ask when can i call you and call right after.
Tie: u didnt come to me a the kinda lady that would lie her boy friend got her the pashmina just to push me way.
p: Laughing ok then so how are you?
Tie: am ok and you?
blah blah . so we talked of about 30 min and ended up with a date for later that evening with a clues ( he said i had to wear the same pashmina) .

7:45 my phone is ringing. ( ok i thot we said 8pm) anyways i was all ready(with out the pashmina) but said i wasnt. ( not like i was trying to play, but my "boyfriend" was on the other line and for some wired reason i felt guilty.
i get out side and met him. he tried to be polite and said hello before asking where my pashmia was, but i could tell that was hard, i could tell he wanted to say that way before he said hello. All i could say was why wasn't he wearing the tie he wore earlier and then he questioned my silence, why i didn't say a word about his tie!!!!.
he had this sexy Cologne on that instantly i knew i was going to be vulnerable if he comes closer !!! i wasn't sure of my self anymore, i wasn't sure i was strong. he was different. very different from other guys i meet in Naija. he spoke differently, acted differently ( well from what i have seen) . so i get into the car and then i was blown all i could hear was the voice of Jill Scott. First i asked: is that the radio? and he said no. instantly i tried to fake it like i wasn't impressed and changed the topic.
on the drive to where eva he was taking me, we talked about everything. then i found out he was an architect. I HAD NO CLUE. !!! then u can imagine how much we had to talk about. We had the same dream :acquire and come make a difference back home. we got to the spot and we didn't come out of the car. we where so into the conversation.
Finally we decide to leave the car and he walks me into this really nice restaurant. ( abuja seems to surprise me everyday) it was very romantic and the ambiance was amazing. We talked and ate and he asked if he could see me during his break tomorrow that he wanted to take me to a site. ( i was so excited but i had to ask: . i hope i dont have to climb up the building mask?) i wasn't ready to come over my fear of height, not with a stranger .
....to be continued

Happy new year !!!

2007 is finally over.
As I look back at the months gone by,
As a new one start, i ask my self,
"What brought me joy?"
Recalling
"all the happy times"
Remembering
"How they enriched my life n my loved ones"
I sit here reflecting upon those who really count,
On those who i am greatfull for being one, just one of my reasons l'll have a happy new year.
With this, my wish for you is that you have your best year yet,
A peaceful one, full of joy, favor and mercy.
This new year, shall be one you cherish ..why?
Because:
it shall be full of bright expectations
it shall be a year of new beginnings
it shall be a year of joy
it shall be a year all heart desires granted.
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

Shouldn't I have a baby to be a mother?

Growing up as the first daughter in my family, i never understood what my parents meant by i was a mother figure in the house until a year ago.
in a family of 5 children, i am the first girl, but 2nd born. I have an older brother and a baby brother and we girls happen to be in the middle of the two most handsome, caring and respectful young men around.
All along i was said to be my dad's favorite hence a whole lot of clashes with my siblings and even my mum. trust me its worse than what eva love you getting from a dad. Some tymes i pray he loves me less and maybe, just maybe i can be like the rest or really they would see me like one of them. Last year Christmas break was the worse. It got so bad i got my things packed and was really ready to leave the house. (where was i going?
after talking to my Fav youth pastor and friend, he made me realise things, and see things differently i guess more like from my siblings point of view. either way, i was still going to have to compromise, calm down and take punches with out complaining. This was hard i would not lie, but i was also willing to give it try. I was willing to see if this would work. I was praying it would.
Every year, on the 27th of December(parents wedding anniversary) , we all come together and talk about each other over the year, good, the bad and the ugly.(trust me it gets ugly sometimes ) So that year was not any different. I was the central of attention (thats what i thot) things my siblings where saying weren't things i wished for, not like it was soo bad, but i thot i was the most understanding, easy to get along with person around, but they said otherwise. I listened and tried so hard to hold back that drop of tear in my eye. Finally they all spoke and my dad being the one that ends the whole talk, went ahead to say well you all have heard what everyone said, Paradigm, you are the first daughter, you are to be like their mother but you not. You aren't acting like one. You get angry with them blah blah. Gosh i felt bad, i felt bad not because of what he or they said, but because i kinda disagree. I felt i was understanding, i felt i gave them a chance, i felt i was caring about their feelings. BUT to my understanding, i was the only one feeling this way.
With this, i really prayed and tried to work on my self. I tried to be 80% more approachable. I tried not to let things they do get me mad, i tried to talk more, wanna know more, and tried to fix their problems between one another other than playing safe being on my own.
It was not easy, but i found out i was enjoying this after it was working . I found out i was actually having a relationship with everyone, i found out i was fixing relationships with one another. "was i beginning to act like the mother i was to be? "i was dying to know i was hoping i was doing what was right. I was hoping it was because i was enjoying it. this had to be right, it felt good.
I guess i would find out on the 27th of this year i thot.
Finally it came. was i ready?No, why? i was scared of the unknown.
My mum started off this year, she went on about everyone, i most say it started out nice unlike last year. we all had something positive i was happy i was excited, even me!!!!. then it was my baby's turn(my lil brother he wud kill me he is 17 now gosh they grown fast ) , gosh have we grown so much together, have we shared a lot of secrets and passions. i found out we where so similar in the scenes that he needs to be pushed to talk. I didn't mind that because i know that's who i am but no one else saw that . It was also nice making them understand each other. through last year to now, it seemed that we all put an extra 99% effort. it felt great , it looked amazing seeing no one chopped with negative criticism. it was amazing.
Now i guess i know what they have been talking about.....

25th December

Christmas day !!!!! yeeeee!!!! Lol aiight I woke up with a kiss on the check from my lil sister yelling Merry Christmas LOVE !!!! I sure had a big smile on my face but she was pushing it with the kisses and all lol .so I got up, went to wash my face and all and went upstairs to wish my folks a merry Christmas. We all came down stairs and exchanged gifts.... After that, we all went out side to the balcony. OMG the weather was beautiful !!!! as in yes it was sunny just right enough sun light and the wind was sooo chill so the constant combination of the sun and the wind was amazing. From where we where sitting, you can see the fog all the way over the mountains in front of us. The contrast of this fog and the trees was amazing; it sure brought out the strong intensity of the color green. Gosh I wish I had my paint brush and canvas here to paint nature at its fullest. Green would be prominent in this piece. Green with a hint of purple and brown. The mountains where all covered with grass, trees. There where also path going all the way up the mountain, this shows that people actually walked all the way up there or something trust me I didn’t even wanna know how and why. I love adventures, but not that kind of one coz can someone pls tell me how in the world am going to get back down? I guess I have finally accepted the fact that I am scared of height. The ride yesterday finally made me accept this fact. So that is a no no.

Dinner: finally I made it out today for dinner, and it was pretty nice. After dinner we all went out side, to a burn fire / cultural dance. The weather was nice, cool breeze and the fire just gave one the right amount of warmth you needed. The dancers where OK , really just ok. It was amazing thou, to see this old women actually doing their thing. Driving back to my room, I could not wait until I got back to the balcony where I felt so whole where I felt so inspired, inspired to do a whole lot, inspired to do the unthinkable. Getting outside, I couldn't see much, why? Coz of the fog. It was as thick as ever I could only see past the vision I get with out my glasses. I love the curiosity I got from this because I was wondering what was behind this thick fog. Behind my head I knew what was there, coz I still have a sketch right in front of me of what was meant to be in that blurry scene.
Happy Holidays to you all !!!!!

Family Vacation @ Ogudu

At first I was skeptical about this trip, maybe it's the fact that I just arrived a day ago they saying we have to take a road trip down there for 7HRS !!!! Come on I just got off the longest trip ever down here and now you want me to sit in the car for 7 hrs??? Knowing my family, I know we going to stop on and on on the road coz my dad would keep buying fruits, site seeing and all. Anyways how did this come up?
Ok my mum planned a get away trip for my dad and her on his birthday, and they said it was unbelievable and that it was worth us seeing aiight I would agree, I saw pictures and I was like wow this is beautiful as in Nature @ its fullest so we all agreed to spend our Christmas holiday there. With the other option being our village, trust me we all jumped on it was the greatest thing in the world.
Like I predicted, we had over 8 stops and I am not joking as in very unnecessary ones as a matter of fact. I got so fed up and tired at the same time. It was taking forever for us to get to this “ spot” that we all looking fwd to go to.
Finally we get to the gate and we had a choice to either drive in the car through the so called “ snake road” or take a cable car ride up the mountain. I would lie I didn’t really trust that ride so I was so after the driving the car with the drivers, but my dad insisted we all experienced it.
We got on the ride and most I say, all of a sudden I forgot the fact that I think I have a fear for height. I made the mistake of looking down and I could just see my would life falling DOWN it seem never ending as in I could imaging something falling down and never getting to the end that’s how it was but of all things, IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. OMG God is really good as in it was an incredible view I would wanna miss in life gosh anyone that says God isn’t real is really in denial coz come o how else can you explain that? We could look down at the road and was I thankful I was not in the car… it seem like you would drive down the mountain.
The trees where deep green no light green naa really, it was all shades of green it was thick and fresh.
The sky was amazing. It was so blue yet so white I could see through it was just beautiful. So from the ride, I was already satisfied as In I was like even If this place has nothing else to offer, the view, was satisfying. The view justified my time in the car. The view was all I needed for this trip to make me have a good time; the view was all I needed to have a wonderful vacation with my family.

So we finally get to our House, (@ the mountain Villa) I promise you, it was HOT !!! as in it looked so much like a beach house the architecture was simple yet so functional. YESSS I had to bring Architecture into this my lil sis was tired of me coz I was looking around and realized it was a pre-fab structure. Did it work for them? Hell yes it was so sophisticated, as in it was very classy. the wood was simply beautiful. I love the way they used light as an important aspect of the building as in there was glass doors leading to the Balcony from the living room and 2 of the bedrooms. It was meant to be a place to appreciate nature, and in every way you look at, it was there. The view from the Balcony was Amazing... we had like the best view i wish i could take it where ever i go. and did I talk about the weather oh it was priceless. Not the typical sunny hot weather in Abuja or Lagos, it had this nice cool breeze constantly blowing and just right that just a scarf or a sweater would do just fine.
The furniture in the house is nice; the finishing on them gave this smooth feel. Yes I actually went around and looked at everything. Really all that was missing was the heavy snow out side and a fireplace. I could see a movie scene or something in here.

23rd: the funniest and longest day

Aiight we get to Frankfurt and we waiting to board the next Flight HOME!!!! yeeee!!!! (little did i know)
So my sis and I where seated, waiting to board since we had about 4 hr transit, and we kept seeing different, size, shape, color and fashion disaster men walking towards our gate. African i most add. Ok it was a flight to Lagos and Accra, what where we expecting??? Finally, a tall , dark skin Fyne i most add brother walk by and winks at my sister and I, finally he saved the rest of the men in the gate coz my sis and I failed to believe there wasnt going to be at least ONE , just ONE nice looking African guy that can actually dress. ok when i say dress, theY get it mixed up, i am not saying the amount of "PHAT FARM, NIKE, SEAN JOHN, what else did they bastardize God??? yeah how can i for get.."ECKO, BUBRREY, COUCH" YOU WEAR, BUT HOW YOU MAKE IT WORK. god the NEXT TYME I SEE A GROWN ASS MAN WEARING A TEE SHIRT or even worse, a pair of jeans or throw backs, WITH ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko ecko echo, written all over it, I would actually step to him and ask WHY???? and if he had the nerve, the courage to wear a matching top or bottom with it, i would just walk by and smile, coz thats some nerve.
anyways we about to board and i am literally praying i am in a roll alone with my sister and did God ans my prayer or not???? YEP
getting to my sit was like an obstacle set out to either delay me, or frustrate me, not too sure which one yet.
So we finally got to my sit and trying so hard to prepare my self mentally for the trip. Sited down, all settled, got my ipod out, coz I was ready to zone out of the environment I was in right about now. Finally the plan takes off after over an hour delay and here it goes the funniest, most annoying, aggravating, plan trip I have ever taken.
30min into the flight two guys seating right in front of my sister an I didn’t see anything wrong in turning a whole 360 and constantly stering at us. Ok this was really freaking me out I had that fake smile on like “ yes can I help you”, but no all they did was continue steering with this big ass smile on. Next thing we see, flash, flash, flash, “are you kidden me? Am I that stupid? They were acting like they taking a picture of them selves, but making in so obvious that they also trying so had not to block my sis and I out of it. No1 I was mad, why? Trust me I wasn’t ready for no pictures, No2, they tried to play smart come on I am not that STUPID. No3. I DON’T KNOW YOU !!!.
Right after that unwanted “photo shot lol”I took my blanket and covered my face I must say music was not taking me where I want to be coz they where out talking the music 100%. 10min, and yep I was finally there. I was listening to some Etta Jones, -At last- and I am so relating this song I donno how to how I felt, at last I am out of this world of loud ass African men. Yelling and talking like they in a sport bar or something. ********** All of a sudden I was out of this wonderful world I created. How???... This rude ass guy, I think he was from Ghana or so, had the never, oooooohh the nerve to pull my blanket off my face and took it further by talking
Man:“ Hey baby, beautiful Africa queen, what’s your name”?
Me: “ are you kidden me? I am sleeping
Man: Yes I know but I have been looking @ you and I choose to talk to you now
(Man drunk as u know what yelling and been hailed for pulling this annoying stunt with me.
Me: Excuse me pls can u not touch me again.
Man; I would if you give me your name.
Me: putting my blanket back on, I press the call button to get the flight attendant.
Flight attendant: yes please how may I help you?
Me: can you please have this man leave me alone?
FA: excuse me sir but you are going to have to get back to your sit.
Man: laughing and yelling like a man drunk….” Tell her al I want is her name and I would leave”
FA: excuse me sir please get back to your sit.
Man: ok I would come back when u wake up …

Ok I could not believe this guy, as income one how rude can you be? He had the nerve to pull my blanket off my head like really who dose that. I was so in shock like I was dreaming I know SOME African men well lets don’t go there MEN ca e rude but dam that’s the height of it. Well for the rest of the flight, I had my blanket over my head.
Right when they came with the Duty free, lol this guy called on one of the attendant and said he wanted to buy cigarettes aiight I was still under my blanket and I could see through so I was kind of eve’s dropping so she asked which brand, and he old her next thing I wasn’t expecting to hear at all, he then asked her “ HELLO CAN I GT HALF OF THAT ?” Yessss he actually wanted her to open it up and sell him half of the box…. Really who does that? I could not control my self and I was cracking up under the blanket and little did I know my sister was doing the same. .. That’s was mad funny at least that was a little comic relive lol
Anyways, after the whole drama and constant noise and talking like really I felt I was at a bar downtown somewhere and there is a mad soccer game going on, i was glad to be in Lagos